b y g o n e s

2008-11-11T10:14:00.000+08:00

I've moved!

www.tehsusukim.wordpress.com

as if i will be updating. well just in case!

2008-11-10T15:24:00.001+08:00

i am contemplating on moving to wordpress or lj.
which shld i go.

leaning towards wordpress though.

rah. not like i update anws.

2008-07-23T16:39:00.003+08:00

i can be so wrong abt so many things in my life.
today, i found another one.

for the longest time, she was my best.
for the longest time, she was my only.
and for the longest time, she was the one i relied on.

i never thought anyone cld take her place.
i sincerely felt grateful for her presence, and how she seemed to support me all the way no matter what.
and when things go bad, i always thought to myself, well, you've got her and she will get your back.

even when i had the canneries, i always thought, she comes first.
i wld gladly push anything and everything away w the canneries to be with her if she asked.

despite the few times where i was hurt that she had seemed to forget abt me, or that i didn't matter as much to her as she was to me, i actually convinced myself i was the one who's being over-sensitive and insecure.

now it just didn't matter.

to be absolutely honest, i was really sad to see those pictures.
and i thought of the lil things she might have said to them when i wasn't ard,
like how she told me abt his lil things.

it may be a joke to them or her, but it's as private as it can be to me.

but now, i think i am over it.
cause now, at the very least, i am starting to earn my own keeps.

i may not have the best family, but tt's not gg to bring me down.
i know alot out there who heard are starting to think

"it's not that serious."
"she's being damn childish over smth so small."

the fact is they are not me, and the fact is they didn't go through what i did since i was borned.

i had been very optimistic abt everything cause i hate being serious and bringing everyone's mood down over my own sad story, which i think to myself, it's actually not that sad.
i made jokes outta everything i said abt my family even though sometimes i may not mean it.
i appearred nonchalant and can't be bothered but she had no idea how much this whole thing troubled me.

it will no longer hurt me as much anymore.
it will take some time, yes, but i am sure not before long, i'll be completely over it.

it's hard to find a someone whom you can call your best.

i'm not sad that i've kinda lost mine, cause somehow i managed to see who's the one who had always been there.

i know who are they now.
though there are only a handful.
i hope i am not wrong abt it again.

and i swear to god, one day i will shake all these off.
i swear.

2008-07-10T02:16:00.003+08:00

always thought we loved one another deep down but we chose not to express it.

after all these years.
i realised only till today, the foundation of this love i had imagined it to be, is based on a piece of paper.
maybe many pieces of that paper.

never been close to them like others have been.
never thought it would mean anything to me.

but it still hurts.

i guess this is it.
this marks the end of us.

2008-05-27T16:06:00.002+08:00

I. AM. ACTUALLY.

WORKING.

i cannot believe it myself.
i am working.

no eye candies so far.
so things to look forward to are lunches and dinners.

and i still have nth much on hands to do.
so feel free to talk to if you see me online.
even if i am "busy", you know i am actually uber free.

and i just got praised for doing smth really small and meaningless.
registration for 10 mins.
i merely stood there.

oh wells. better than nth.

somehow i can't help but wanna thank asri for the way he "trained" us back then in esplanade.

in any case.
money is now my very top priority.
dreams, freedom, fun job, long beauty sleeps are no longer on the list.

i need cash.
i need blings!

2008-05-05T09:25:00.003+08:00

it's the second time she needs to go to the hospital for surgery.

back then it was some laser operations on the neck which the doc said can lead to cancer if not treated.
so she got all these red spots all over her neck after the laser-ing stuff.

now she has to go for a tumour removal.
it started with a small bump on the elbow, and now it has evovled into a lump that is so obvious.
yet i never took notice till now.

she didn't tell me if it'e benign or not.
she doesn't seems to want to talk much abt it at all.
all the errs, ahs and huhs.
if she can just talk to me.

i need to get a life.
i need to stop idling and grow up.

God, why?
why her?

2008-05-01T18:28:00.002+08:00

i miss miss miss miss miss my SHINHWA so much.

my ORANGE MEN~~~~~~~
(no more boys cause they are really old but ah. still so charismatic.)

i need to get my dosage of shinhwa-ness now.

2008-04-19T00:12:00.002+08:00

OZZY'S OUT OF SURVIVOR MICRONESIA!!!!!!!
oh my.

was abit devastated cause he is really FRIGGIN' HOT and sorta the eye candy of the show.
but i wasn't as devastated as i thought i wld be.

he was getting cocky.
and all his flirting with girls.
TSK.
make me angry.

but he's still hot nonetheless.
rah. if only he used his immunity.
if only i cld have told him.

bah. bring him back pretty pls?
at least for a few episodes more?
not as a jury tt is.

2008-04-12T02:15:00.002+08:00

if everything goes well, i may be starting work this coming mon or tues.
it's an office job, but not like i will stay forever.
just for the money i'm gonna do it.
yup.

rene. rem. to clal me along for the banqueting.

2008-04-11T18:51:00.026+08:00

i went blog surfing again last night and yet again, i was so affected by what i read.
it's very annoying.
to be affected by such things that are so trivial.

then again. i am that kind who gets jealous very easily.
be it my lover, family or friends.
but that's 'cause i love those people so much.

to know that she cared abt her more than she cared abt me, it makes me green.
to know that she misses her more than she does of me, it makes me jealous.
to know that she told her those words more than she tells me, it hurts.

sometimes i feel i am not part of the group.
but what can i do.

it's prolly the time of the month again.
enough of my stupid emo grumbles.

on with Taiwan!

ShiLin Market
士林夜市

i think it was the second night that me and kel went to ShiLin for supper.
the very much talked abt night market in Taiwan.
so we had to go check out the scene.

the night market in sight when we reached the station.
can see the long queue for the famous 炸鸡排。

and then we landed!
it was super crowded when we reached the place.
they had some Graduation Trip for the teenagers or smth and we saw rows of kids sitting down on the ground.

the inside of the market.
super alot of bright signboards sticking out everywhere!!
all in "chair-nise"!!

the stall which me and kel have decided to eat in.
actually the tables are really dirty and sticky.
the bottom of the tables are really super gross and black and sticky.

the "chair-nise" menus that are taped to the tables.
quite smart ah.
save paper save space.

kel ordered a bowl of 牛肉面,
which didn't taste very nice.

i forgot what my noodle is called.
水饺 smth which tasted damn bad.
the sauce is sour, the noodles are sticky and hard.
it tasted like a bowl of fermented noodles.

麻辣臭豆腐。
Spicy Smelly Tofu.
not very 麻辣 or 臭。
but i love the salted vegetables. so crunchy.

kel pretending the tofu is very smelly.
it really is not.
ROAR.

the three dishes all tgt.
the first three dishes that didn't turn out good.

so then, i wanted to try more so i've decided to taste their Oyster Omelette.
蚝煎。
their food are quite cheap la..
NT$40 equivalent to S$2.

and then i stupidly decided to try their fishball soup as well.
GROSS TO THE MAX.
ok maybe just not to my likings.
but the fishballs are really not the bouncy kind!!
and the soup is really plain.
REGRETS!!!

THE LEGENDARY 蚝煎。
ok actually this is the prawn one cause i hated the oyster one.
guess what.
it's equally disgusting.

The 蚝煎。
the brown sauce on top is very redundant.
and they don't have parsley.
and they don't have CHILLI!!!
the friggin' brown sauce is SWEET!!!
disgusting right!!

but we decide to give it a try.
WRONG MOVE.
the paste is damn sticky, it tasted like glue!!
glue with oysters and sweet sauce.
WHAT THE HELL LA.
so in the end the whole plate of 蚝煎 just turned out to be a plate of goo.

kel finally found the stall which 罗志祥（小猪）was working at.
in the show 转角遇到爱 that is.

we also tried their popular bubble tea.
珍珠奶茶。
i don't see the big deal actually.
it's just bigger in size and cheaper
like S$1.20 for a cup that is half a time bigger than SG's normal cup size.

kel insisted on me holding the cup so that she can take a pic.
-___-"

we went walking around before going back and stumbled into a 24hr supermart.
and look at their wide variety of milks!!!

kel and me in the mart infront of the shampoo shelf!!

and back to the train station gg back to our hostel!
BYE BYE!!

2008-04-11T03:16:00.004+08:00

OH. MY. GOODNESS.

it's a friggin' manifestation.
something is wrong with my house.
first there are millions of ants crawling in through the window from the outside.

NOW IT'S A FUCKING COCKROACH SPREE!!!!!!!!!!

someone tell me what to do. seriously.
i'm hugging the baygon to sleep.

ps: someone's driving me nuts. i can't take it. it's an over dosage. GET OUT!

2008-02-20T15:54:00.001+08:00

i am gg on a paranormal trip this coming FRI!!!
i will try to take pics but no promise hor.

ltr i capture smth tt i shldn't have.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

but i am really excited for the trip la!!!
pray hard nth follow me or my sis home pls.

2008-02-17T17:14:00.014+08:00

so we were in Taiwan, and the first place to go was Wu Fen Pu!!
really cheap clothes there but we sorta went too early.
so not much stall was opened.

First Day in Taiwan!

I'm all prepared to shop ok!

kel wants to grab all the clothes in Wu Fen Pu!

our brunch in Taiwan.
三妈臭臭锅.
not very 臭actually.
it's in fact DAMN tasty and nice!!

my kimchi soup and kel's chicken soup.

the vege looks damn nice hor!
it was!!!

there was alot of ingredients inside.
the price was normal. but super yummy.
i still miss it can.
i think it's my fav. food in Taiwan.

saying hello from the shop!

kel and me in the shop~ woohoo.

after eating we headed towards WFP and the signs are all in chinese!!!

Stop = 停
Give Way = 让

i like the 让 alot. i think it's funny.

Slow Down.
and they stretched it so long.. i think the person was like talking really slowly to enphasis on the word.. so it was like "mannnnnnnnnnn."
tt's why the word so long right.

Taiwan's alley!

The cross junction.
Super alot of ~~cars~~ scooters, Super messy.
the traffic rules are rather flaccid.
so when you cross pls be careful of the cars.
they really don't care much abt the pedestrains.

my fav. mart in Taiwan!
they got alot of things inside!!!
their drinks are damn special!!!
and they have alot of 便当-s!!!
全家就是你家~!!

our hostel was in like super near 西门町, so it only took a few steps to reach there.

The entrance to 西门町.
很乱 hor?

Two SUPER DUPER HUGE dogs saw at 西门町!!
they were like UP TO MY WAIST can!!!!
scary la! can you imagine if they pounce or jump!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

anws. so we took the train / 捷运 to WFP.
and we actually anyhow pronounce one of the chinese names cause the word was too chim.
and it was so embarrassing cause we were rather loud and suddenly the announcer pronounce the name of the station.
PAISEH.

their ticketing machine.
I like leh! very nice!!!
their ez-link is called EASYCARD
悠游卡.

they have TWO versions!!
which i love!! i love such machines cause i just love them!

their railway and a few citizens.

and the train was finally here!
their train arrival time is much faster.
like 3mins per train or shorter.
but their train body is shorter.
like 3/4 of SG's?

us on the train!

they got priority seats for pregnant women and older citizens.
i think SG shld have such things too cause singaporeans are really VERY unautomatic.
so annoying.
but they need to change the last pic of the sign.
looks very wrong.

anws~ we bought pretty alot of stuff from WFP.
i bought quite alot of shirts from Taiwan and they were all like only $5?
bought stuff that cost more of course.
and tonnes of shopping for gifts.
didn't spend much for myself.

anws~ we kinda got lost when we exited WFP cause it was so FRIGGIN BIG!!
we ended up at a tollay different station when we finally found the subway.
like two stops away from the original stop we alighted.

and it started raining when we reached WFP!
very sad can!
the rain stopped for a while and started again when we wanted to LEAVE WFP!
thank god i was wearing slippers!

The OCTAGON-shaped overhead bridge we saw while trying to find a way to the train station.
it's really very huge and you can try to spot the mini kelly in the last pic!

seriously, why build such a big overhead bridge, where the steps are mighty high, and the bridge part is damn long.
in this shape somemore.
you are practically walking in "circles" to get to one pt which is shorter if they just build a traffic light.

the traffic down below from the overhead bridge's view!
alot of yelow cabs!

my spongebob bag i bought in Taiwan!
only $5 can!!

kelly's loot of the day.
for herself, for her friends and her bros.

i forgot to take mine cause i wanted to bathe.
so sticky from all the walking and the splattering rain.

and we bought some snacks from their 7-eleven before gg bak to the hostel.
Bento, apple juice, tomyam soup and tea-leave eggs!
I love the eggs!!!!

their 便当 is 好吃到~~!!
only SGD 2.00 like that leh!!

SEE!!!!
alot of ingredients right!!!
got uber bouncy and chewy sausage,
tender and soft teriyaki chicken,
pickles which i love, fishcake and even an omelette!!
the rice is the sticky kind somemore!!!
Go with the salted vege and the pickles!!!!
OMG.
i want to eat their 便当 again.

my apple juice with the cute 7-eleven mascot.
why can't out 7-eleven be cuter.

my eggs!!!

i love them so much i have to take a pic and show me eating it to you!!
really VERY delicious.
the taste is very strong and not like those you bought in Pasar-Malam.
our 7-eleven shld do it too!!

and that's generally the end of day 1 in Taiwan.
we shopped the entire day can.
是累倒。。。

we bathed, changed, and took some pics in the room!

mask night!!
every night is mask night k!

and a kiss gdnight before we went to join Jan and gang in the kitchen for more crapping, games, booze and tea!!

2008-02-15T20:55:00.010+08:00

long await taiwan trip entry!

ok. awaited by van only i know!

hahaha~ van. nah! here i fill you in k!

02-10-2007 Towards Taiwan!!

kelly's father was very nice to come to my place and pick me up to the airport.

saw kel's mummy and they were very very nice people.

though i had to lie abt certain things which i felt really bad abt cause they were nice people.
hanged abt with them for a while before we checked in~~~

out BK meal before boarding.
i always wondered how it feels like to eat at the BK that is inside the check-in point after seeing Hyesung doing it last time.
not very special la.

my taiwan trip partner kelly quek!

and so we board the plane..
Bye bye Singapore.
(i actually felt a lil' sad when the plane started moving away. emo can.)

us on the plane heading towards Taiwan.
"Welcome, 2 Taiwan!"
(in the jolin tsai manner)

our view (ok my view cause i was near the window) while on the plane.

a VERY huge clump of cloud.
this is like only 1/4 of the whole thing.

and this thing!!! SO PRETTY RIGHT!!!
i don't know if it's an island or what!!!
the bright blue ream ard it. TOO beautiful i tell you.
someone find out and tell me can?

and then we arrived, at prolly 6+pm?
i forgot what time our flight was and it was a 4hr flight.
oh. i think it was ard 5.30

Oh. did i mention the flight was very uncomfortable.
i bought a book to read on the plane, but it wasn't much help cause i can't stretch my friggin legs!

very painful you know!!

cldn't sleep much either cause the chair can't be pushed backwards.
VERY limited space on Jetstar.
so only like doze off once in a while for 30mins max.

w/o the ds, it was a torturous flight.
but rather cheap tix. what to expect.

anws, after arriving, we had to take this bus to our hostel.
time check 7.00pm and it was ALREADY pitch black.
very amazing for a country pumpkin like me which was my first trip ever!
oh! and it's the first time i took a plane too!
HAHAHA.

we arrived really late cause we cldn't find the place.
every sign is in chinese and are friggin small and high up far above eyesight.
not much signs btw so wasn't very good in direction navigating!

called Ice a few times to ask for direction and she kept telling me once i see "ADC" building turn left.
i was like, 'ADC, ok.' and kept searching for that building.
and then i saw it.

she meant
"KFC"

they have KFC building leh!

Anws. we arrived at ard 8+ at Taipei Backpackers.
which Jan and gang called it the Taipei Baka Baka cause it's a long eng. sentence for them to pronounce.

nice place and very friendly stuff. love them tonnes cause we spent like every night tgt!!
drinking tea, playing games, getting drunk, eating lunch.
so i highly recommend people to head down there if you are on a budget trip to Taiwan or doesn't want to spend too much on lodgings.

Clean and cozy.

The living room / reception area.

n me posing in the living rm! HEH.
VERY nice pose hor.

the kitchen area.
not exactly atas but very homely. i like.
and this is where we ate, played and drank with the gang!

our room. it's damn small actually.
not like we spend alot of time in it anws.
super clean though.

this is how their switch looked like!

common shared dressing table.

the internet area.
sometimes we just sit ard on the small sofa with Ice and Yang Yang to chit chat.

and that was where we met an angmoh who teaches in korea!
and he has a krn gf whom he said is VERY pretty leh.
i don't know if i can trust him cause he is pretty weird himself.

AND I ALSO MET 2 THAI GIRLS WHO CAME FOR DBSG'S CONCERT IN TAIWAN.
THEY ARE SUPER CUTE ONE LEH!

the night after the concert and they came back to the hostel, i knocked on the door wanting to find out how was the concert like.
when i opened the door, they were being high, playing SUJU's and DBSG's music, flinging their big lightsticks ard, jumping and laughing very happily.

SO CUTE HOR!
one of them like suju's, fav sungmin or was it eeteuk.
the other likes DBSG and LOVES JUNSU!
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

no competition there.
I WIN HANDS DOWN.
KIA KIA KIA KIA KIA.

i like this phone alot can!
it wld be better if the number pad is those kind where you have to turn it to dial.
i love antique phones!

End of the very first day in Taiwan.
More Next time!

Time for some DBSG!
---------------------------------------------

DBSG CONCERT IN KL!!!!!

YES I WENT TO THEIR CONCERT AND SAW THEM UPCLOSE AND REAL LIFE!!!!

we are VERY happy cause we got the tix!!
so happy that we have to pose and take picture!
WAHAHAHA.

the tix! happy or what you tell me!
TVXQ leh!!

me, kow and elaine.
all dolled up for their concert k.
they might just lay eyes on me or them leh.
and we were super excited!!

in the standing pit and the fans before the concert starts.
not alot of people.

AND SO THE CONCERT STARTS!!!!
EXCITED SIA!!!

they are actually not that skinny and they looked older than their age.
they looked like they are in their mid 20s.

Jaejoong is super dao btw.
didn't really looked at the fans but i'll give him the benefit of a doubt that he was just feeling too hot.

CAUSE IT WAS REALLY DAMN HOT.

Junsu and Changmin TOO adorable.
Changmin ACTUALLY POSED for ELAINE ok!!!
but she is not sharing photos cause she is VERY possessive!
hahaha. so only the few of us will see the photo!

and there was this moment where his machine sorta have a malfunction for a while.
so for a moment he gave that uber cute confused look and started scratching his head.
CUTE LEH!!!!

he is VERY HANDSOME in real life really!!!!
the rest just looked pretty normal like on tv.

Junsu's butt is REALLY perky though!!
and his solo dance, WOOHOO! POWER!
(i so wanna rape him omg.)
and Jaejoong is HONESTLY white.

Yunho was SUPER SEXY when he rapped for his solo!
he didn't dance much for the concert though.
still had some injury so we cldn't see him dance!

Junsu actually said "BELI HUT." to the fans and did a super cute action la!
not at us though.
(he meant VERY HOT.)

the focused mainly on the "VIP" section which was really unfair cause we all paid the same price and we were the one standing while they had chairs!
plsu majority of them prolly didn't even pay and got free tix ok!!!

Yoochun was very sweet he gave a bunch of fake flowers to one of the "VIP" fans.
and he muttered alot of english which 90% of us cldn't decipher.
we only know he muttered super alot of "RRRRR"s and his ending word will always be "RRRRRRIGHT?"

so me and kow will just scream and jump and yell "YEAH!!" along although we have absolutely no idea what crap he just spoke.

I've got two videos but i am not sharing either!!!!
Junsu is for my eyes only hor!!!
hahaha. no i am not so selfish.
the reason i am not posting is because blooger's video uploader is very slow.
and i am not patient.

here's a UBER cute pic of Jaejoong in an awkward dance pose.
but he STILL looked so adorable!
SMILE UNTIL SO CUTE!

DBSG 3rd Japanses Album 'T' is out!!
it's really not a bad album!!
GO grab them now!!!

my personal favs are:

Purple Line
Trick
Clap
Forever Love
Kiss

and for me to like japanese songs is actually very hard.
but i actually loved 5 songs!
so they are really good!!!

and btw!! i have a bf hor!!
so vday i wasn't alone.

WAHAHA.
here's my bf!!!!

I know he is VERY cute.
he is ALL MINE hor.
HANDS OFF EVERYONE.

so adorable.
and he's MINE.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

we went to the beach for vday and he wrote this for me!!!

VERY SWEET RIGHT!!!
I KNOW!!!

oh my god! I LOVE MY BOY TOO!!!

WHAHAHAHA.

2008-02-12T01:40:00.001+08:00

i have time, i have nth to do and i have the urge.
so here is my entry for halloween last yr~
very slow i know but it's my blog.
own time own target hor.

went to witty's hse first to get changed before we cabbed down to the used to be Plush (which is now closed down btw, sadly.)

took a few pics at witty's but haven't receive them yet.
had pizzas and talked abit before a bunch of girls started dolling up in witty's rm.
VERY PACKED i must say.

and then woohoo!!
7 policewomen on the patrol to Plush!!!

Halloween night at Plush!

when we arrived we were rather embarrassed cause not much people were dressed at that time.
and 7 policewomen was a pretty big bunch to be honest.

policewomen also need to queue to get in hor.

the 7 policewomen and the slutty doc.
not very slutty leh.

then the fairy came in!

my fairy sis and her human police in the loo.

fairy with ordinary police elaine.

3 policewoman, a fairy and an indian woman.

elaine and ling.

ling and elaine salute you!

photo taken by some photographer.

anws. music was bad at Plush that day. so we headed off to mos in the end.
the retro room was so fun!!
and there were super alot of angmohs.. and they simply loved us with the caps.
it was rather shocking when they just took off some of our caps and played with them themselves.
i got a shock when one angmoh just suddenyl took off my cap la huh.
in exchange with his two light sticks.
hahahaha.

outside 7-eleven stoning while on our way to MOS.

random strangers who wanted to take a pic with us.

ok. end of this entry.
till i have the mood, i will post more stuff!!!

2008-02-11T02:04:00.001+08:00

i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate EVERYONE.

I hate YOU for MIA-ing on and LYING to me.

I hate YOU for ACTING LIKE WE ARE CLOSE.

I hate YOU for HANGING OUT ONLY CAUSE OF HER.

I hate YOU for LISTENING TO WHATEVER SHE SAYS.

I hate YOU for CASTING ME ASIDE.

I hate YOU for CARRYING ON WITH DOING THINGS WITHOUT ME.

I hate YOU for BRING STUBBORN AND HAS TO BE RIGHT ALL THE TIME.

I hate YOU for BEING STUPID.

I hate YOU for CHANGING AND NOT BEING YOURSELF ANYMORE.

I hate YOU for BEING CLOSE TO THEM WHILE I AM NOT.

I hate YOU for YOU JUST BEING YOU.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! why must i see those pictures.
why must i see those unfateful pictures.
sucks sucks sucks sucks.
why why why why why why.
how can you still do what you do despite what you told me.
how can you carry on with it when i say i am not gg.
how can you how can you.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!

everything is gg the wrong way!!!!

i am so pissed cause i am having my thing and it is so not a gd feeling.
i need a higher paying job.
i need a job with cooler people.
i need money.
i need tonnes of money.
i need to go korea.
i need to see him!

maybe i shld just so get a sugardaddy.

i just wanna be in his arms right now.
sooo wanna be.

i think i have a crush on my cousin.

2008-01-27T03:23:00.000+08:00

seeing him the one last time.
lying there.
and i cldn't help it.

he has gotten so weak.

as soon as i open my eyes again,
he is gone.
forever.

when the night falls, and i am all alone,
i think of him.

and i can't stop crying.

my heart really hurts.
it really really hurts so bad.
i can't stop those tears.

2007-12-11T17:17:00.000+08:00

omg i am bored to the max at work..
i was actually rather happy.
but just one call made me rather grumpy. omg.

anws..
i am working at Starhub Call Center.
gd pay sucky environment though.
i don't really like the job.
not because of the customers.
but because of the repetition of the stupid promotions and the people working here.

in any case did i mention Farhan is working at the same place.
i was freaked out when i saw him. and happily he seems to be rather closely knitted to my senior.. GEEE.
CUA DIO

he even identified me and ask if i rem. him!!!
OMG.

in any case i got my DS LITE!!!!
but the friggin R4 is not available so i can't play any games and my stupid nds is just sittin ard and being pretty.
so annoying.

the delivery is taking forever. RAH.

ok more updates when i am free..
tt is if i care.
other than rene i don't think anyone else cares.

more pics and taiwan adventures to come.

i wanna meet rene and go home slp!!
my r4 pls come!!

2007-10-31T22:10:00.000+08:00

super duper late entries.
i know.
one at a time k.

First up.
The super super late entry of:

Esply girls bbq where cheryl got drunk.

Photos!

The very organised BBQ pit for us to "organise" our charcoals.

Tired to take a candid shot of them bbq-ing, but Joyce is irritating!
She die die must pose.

Oh and pls don't think kow is very hardworking.
She stood at the pit for 5 mins before walking away and resting for the rest of the evening.

See! i am very hardworking k!
I'm the fire starter!!!

BBQ-ing!
Once again, Kow only stood there and pretended like she was bbq-ing.

The catered food.
They were really good.

Hoon and laine.
The Marshmellow Fight Has Begun..

And the Saga Continues...
No price for guessing who won.

Laine and me!!
It's the YOOSU love!

Laine, me and rene.
I miss my rene.

Fantastic Four!!

And that will be yun, me, witty and laine!

Grp shot before we headed back to yun's hse for some booze.

Hoon and Joyce got kinda drunk and went crazy.
And they only drank like a few mouthful of vodka.
hahahaahaha.

I still have the video.

Ok! Back at Yun's hse!

Another candid shot attempted.
Once again, JOYCE PEH SHI JIA!
STOP POSING.

Kow and Yun.
AWWWW.. JAEHO love..

laine and yun.
YUNCHUN love.
which junsu wasn't really happy abt.

sitting ard and getting drunk.

a lil' bit of JAESU love!

ok end of this!

the photos are uploaded!

Taiwan trip photos, Halloween photos, Kbox bdae celebration photos and JEEW day of fun photos to come!!

till then~ so long!

2007-10-10T04:52:00.000+08:00

Fucking hate fucking annoying ass and lil' fucking bitches and puny fucking bastards who steal my fucking thunder when it's my turn to fucking shine.

Go fucking get a fucking line of your own.
STOP FUCKING STEALING MY THUNDER.
YOU FUCKING LIL' HO'.

FUCK BALLS & ROT IN HELL.

2007-10-09T11:37:00.000+08:00

i am coming back in four hours!!!
i am gonna miss the people.. but i don't think i will miss.....

HMM.

Let's keep it hanging there.

amy my dear girl, yes once again only you will and shall know.

MISS YOU MUCH!

2007-10-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

typhoon has hit taiwan.
i am stuck in the hostel.

to be honest, i am not liking this place tt much.
and i kinda can't stand the people here.

amy my dear girl i think you will only be the only person who knows why.

i am only here for my boys.
wich sadly up till now i still have yet to see them.

the thai girls told me tt the concert they attended yest allowed people outside to go in FREE halfway through the concert.
and the people get to be right infront of the stage.
BLOODY HELL.

i was happily taking stupid buses for 3 hrs just to get to some place in Taiwan and when i got there the shops were closed.
fucking idiotic.
and typhoon got nearer and the rain was so strong.

i wanted to get to the stadium to take photos but i didn't go cause i din't wanna trouble the rest.
i shld have followed the thai girls.
OMG.
fuck.
i am so irritated.
why?
cause it was my friggin bdae and this happened.

amy.
i am getting irritated.
rem. the msn chat we had regarding the company?
you are right.
i am ggetting fuckin annoyed.

concert cancelled today.
evereyone had to stay indoors due to typhoon.
another day gone by and i miss my boys.

God, why me...

2007-10-05T02:53:00.000+08:00

ok.. so yest. we went Wu Fen Pu to shop.. and then we went Shilin market to eat.
not very nice.. but it was generally ok.
had bad beef noodles and oyster omelette.

THEIR OYSTER OMELETTE IS SWEET.

AND THEIR BUBBLE TEA IS THE SAME AS SG's.

but their bento are like super nice.

and this morning we met witty at Xi Men Ding.
we went Danshui first and then a bus to Fishermen's Dock... rather nice place with great sceneries.
took super alot of pics but i can't bloody hell upload them.
BAH.

we took a boat to Old street.
they have very nice shades but i didn't buy any.
pretty but not very usable in SG...
but i kinda regretted it now.
i found a really nice one!!

then we went Wu Fen Pu again to get more clothes!!!
cheap cheap clothes!!!!

and the staff here prepared a surprised party for me~
HOW SWEET!!!
love this place!

ok more updates tmr..
thoroughonce i get back with all the pictures!!!

love you all and i miss SG!

2007-10-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

I can't update with pics cause the com does not have the memory card slot.
and i don't have the cable.

but...

I'M IN TAIWAN!!!!!!!

ahahahaha~
day one and i'm already missing home. T.T

2007-09-19T00:55:00.000+08:00

it's official.

I am gg off to Taiwan on the 2nd of Oct.
will be away for 7 days, so miss me pls!!!
HOW EXCITING!!

if ya need anything just call or msg.
will try my best to get them!!

and pls pray tgt with me to meet my boy!!!
OMG I CAN'T WAIT!!!

2007-08-16T00:51:00.000+08:00

omg. i didn't blog for more than a month.
ah~~

so many things to update.

the chalet with dysfunct.
the bbq with esply.

still waiting for all the photos to come in before i blog.
will relink those who've changed urls soon.

i'm working full time now at my mum's place along with tuition.
so i am gonna be super busy!!
plus my only off day is Sunday, where i have korean class.
SO... i am VERY BUSY!
hahahaa.

Taiwan Trip from 2nd Oct to 9th.
Anyone interested?
just so you know, DBSG will be in there too during tt period.
msg or call me!!

tong: i just want to prawn to win money. and also when the prawn is hooked, it feels kinda nice.
kokmeng: what the... hahaha~ suddenly very IT savvy hor you..

2007-07-14T22:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR BABY MICHAEL!!

and HAPPY BIRHTDAY to my sister who turns 22 this coming sunday!!

my dad has a girlfriend now.
and they all tried to hide from me when it was pretty intuitive and blatant.
come on.
i am 20.

2007-07-04T05:29:00.000+08:00

i've got nth to say.
I HATE SCH.
Tt's all.

rene's in aust now.
and i didn't even notice.
rene smoked.
and i didn't know.
:(

have been very moody nowadays.
so i am sorry if have been mia-ing.
i am very grumpy these days.

let the photos do the talking.

jeff's backview and amy posing on the prawning bridge

Farmart prawning with the girls.

sharon and me

amy and me

the four of us. Jeff, Amy, Ron and me.

and tonnes of sharon.

and again.

hmmm.

the prawning pond at taman jurong

me and my sis.

jeff and his "龙虾大过小女孩" pose after catching a pretty big prawn.
he was pretty proud of it.

our catch of the night!

Prawning at taman jurong with sis, jeff and amy.
sis with the super big prawns we caught.

jeff poses with the big bbq-ed prawn

on a different day of prawning at taman jurong, we met gloria before gg!!
sent her home and took several pics.
i looked like crap cause i was hunching and I looked like a tree trunk.
BAH.

prawning again at farmart.

this time with hairy instead of sharon

Some miscellenous photos.
had mahjong forfeit where by the winner decides on the forfeit for the person who threw the tile for his/her win.

amy was first. and hairy told her to put two clothes pin in her two nostrils.

then i told hairy to wear my tube dress to play.

lots more but we didn't take photo.

stupid jeff told me to cover my head with my transparent bag.

and the book i've been reading all over again.

SUPER NICE.

i love sec. school literature.

2007-06-20T03:21:00.000+08:00

As I was reading the bible just yesterday,
I came across this verse:

"Have faith in God.
For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain,
'Be removed and be cast in the sea,'
and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.
Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them."
(Mark 11:22, 23, 24)

Thank you God,
for answering my questions which had been ringing in my head for that few days.
Thank you SO much.
I love you, and YES, I'll have faith.
YES, I'll believe.

& to you, that someone who will know tt I'm referring to is actually you:

It has reached the part where you cared more for the superficial counter parts of females who cared shit abt you more than your best friends who are actually concerned.

It has reached the part where everything you've said and done looked like it comes with a motive of spending more time with that person instead of us.

It has been blatantly lied on the table sometimes you just needed us to pass time, yet you made no effort into coming to us, and it was us who were constantly on our feet in search of you.

It comes to a pt where we cld no longer care less cause whatever you say doesn't coincide with your actions AT ALL.

It also comes to a pt where apologies doesn't seem to be sincere and genuine anymore and you are doing it just because.

Now I'm telling you in your face,

it's bloody time to wake the friggin hell up and look at the people ard you.
Look at the life you are leading.
If you are happy with it, you go on ahead w/o us.
It's better for you to catch a new buoy than clinging on to a rotting piece of log while you're sinking.

Do know that we are disppointed.
Do know that we are hurt.

Do know that we've never intended to lose you at all.

Do know that I was in fact touched when you actually bothered to msg us and realised it.

Yet I could not bring myself to tell you that,
"Hey, it's alright.. don't worry."

I can no longer do it.

I'm not trying to reprimand nor am I trying to hurt you.
You can msg us all you want, apologise all you can for now.
Till then, we'll see how this whole situation goes.

Do you mean it, do you not, it all depends on what your next moves are.

2007-06-13T14:38:00.000+08:00

Esplanade Dinner at Republic of Singapore Yacht Club

Lame, kow and me arrived pretty late cause of our korean lessons.

Everyone was already there, even asri was there!

Saw pretty alot of unknown faces.

& musa looks TOTALLY like a little boy.

He is SO short and scrawny. and his hair. GEE.

Kow and me at RSYC dining

Lame and lala dining

Lala and lame again. lala looked so CUTE!!

Groupie!!! Cheryl, liyun, heikal and rene not there though. Sad.

Top (from left): Ananth, Kow, Lame, Witty, Me, Lala, Ah Huay, Rachel
Bottom (from left): Joyce, Junwei, Kaili and Chern Cheih.

The food was generally ok. Not exactly very nice actually. Didn't eat much cause they were really pretty cold and tasteless. Only ate some fruits, a mouthful of fried rice and potato and cheese cake. It wasn't tt impressive and it wasn't tt fun.

Missed rene like mad though. She chopped her hair! Heh.
And I missed the rest of the esplanade people whom I haven't see for so damn long.

Prawning at Farmart!

Last min. thing that we felt like prawning.
So jeff drove us to the Farmart to prawn and Hairy joined us too!!!

Amy and I on our way to Farmart.

The pond to "fish" for prawns.

It was Hairy & YanJing VS. Jeff & Amy.
Well, we lost.
We got ZERO PRAWNS for 3 hrs!!!!!
Can you belive it.
The other team manage to fish for ONE prawn. We are tt pathetic.

Jeff acting pro and "lao jiao" while prawning.

Hairy, Amy and me!
The angle is tollay not good for my face.

Amy and I (:

There was quite alot of pros there and they were actually very nice!!
Started helping us prawn and offered us their "special" baits instead of cockles which we were using.
Started talking and two Pros started helping us.
And soon there was a competition btwn the two of them and our pro won the first bet of ONE DOLLAR!!!! Cause he got a PRAWN FIRST!!!!

And the stake went higher the second round.
Amy's Pro got the bet cause tt pro went under the bridge to prawn!!
and he won TEN DOLLARS.

HAHAHA.
They are so cute.

CQ Steamboat

Sis and I on the lift heading towards CQ.

Me eating the desserts.
Once again, bad angle.

Our dirty plates and table and tollay unappetising pic of the steamboat.

Acting pouty and enjoying the food.

Sis and her big eyes and arched eyebrows.

Random Stuff

Amy and I after badminton

Me and her VS Jeff.
He was so excited please.

And we had KFC after badminton.
All the exercising gone to waste....
And my arms and butt muscles ached like crazy the next day.

Kidney Stones

The pain actually started a few weeks before it got really bad.
It was like cramps plus stitches kinda pain.
Don't really know how to explain it.

Went to a polyclinic in the afternoon.
The female doc bloody tell me it's just my intestines trying to push things out.
And that shld be I have alot of gas that's why it's so painful.

Please. With doctors like her, I think i can prescribe medicine for myself.
She tollay didn't get it when I say the pain kinda numbs my thigh.

Would I not know what kinda pain it shld be if my DU ZI JING FENG?!
I won't even waste $10+ on it la!

And so the pain got worse in the night when I woke up from my nap.

So Jeff and Amy sent me to the hospital along with my sister to see what actually is wrong.

Was told to give a urine sample.
But I tollay have NO PEE at all.

And so I waited for the urge to pee....

And waited....

When I finally got the pee, which I kinda forced myself, it only amounted to like.. 1mm of pee.
And next I have to go for a scan to see what went wrong.

In the rope thing meant for the scan.

And so, the first diagnosis was that I had intestine inflammation.
Which explains it cause it was where my pain was.
Then my sister asked if it cld be kidney problems too, the doc said "YES".

I got the scare of my life please!!
I mean it's KIDNEY you are talking abt!!!
After tt, we took the medication and jeff sent us home again.

When i reached home and took the medicine and TRIED to slp, the pain got to its peak i tell you.
IT WAS SO FUCKING BAD I CLDN'T SLEEP OR LIE DOWN OR SIT OR STAND.

Started vomitting the medicine and all the food I ate.
I was practically squirming ard on the floor, trying to find a position that will ease the pain.

Finally I cldn't take it and told my mum I need to go back to the hospital again.
On the way in the cab the pain was so unbearable I felt like killing the driver everytime he drove pass a hump or when there was bump.
Cause everytime the cab did that, the pain gets worse like someone took a knife and stabbed me.

The doc. recognised me when i got there and admitted me in immediately.
Took two charcoal tablets and gave me some injections which only made me feel sleepy.
BUT THE PAIN WAS STILL THERE.

So even if I wanted so desperately to sleep it off, I CLDN'T!
And guess what, I started vomitting the stupid black charcoal pills out.
YUCKS.

And then the second diagnosis was I got Food Poisoning.
I was like HUH?!
I mean how can it be?! Food Poisioning?!
Would there be those sharp pain near my back as well?!

And shortly after that, I was pushed to my ward.
Supposed to be in Class C ward, but there was over-crowding.
So I got a Class A ward.
YAY.

My view everytime I open my eyes in a Class A ward.

Got there, two doctors came in and started examining me.
Asked me a series of questions which I don't rem. at all.
I was very drowsy pls. I don't even rem. my main doctor's name.

The put me on drips for the next few days, and it kinda hurt when they first inserted the tube in and stuff.
When the drip started flowing in, I cld actually feel in in my vein!
And when he had to inject smth into me via the tube, it hurts so much please!!

Oh, and the disgusting part was, the male doc had to put his fingers into my ass to feel if my rectum is swollen or anything.

I was pretty unconscious, so I didn't really care or feel embarrassed abt it.
I mean, I am the patient what!
But putting myself in his shoes, I think he is DAMN KE LIAN.
SO ke lian, it is actually pretty funny.

Can you imagine if he wanna anal fuck his gf/wife next time, and he thinks abt all the disgusting ass he slotted his fingers in before?
BLOODY TURN OFF LA!
YUCKS.

Later in the night, a nurse came in and asked me what I wanted to have for my meals for tmr.
WHEN I WAS ON DRIPS.

Nurse: "You can't eat or drink now cause you are on drips ya? And also we might need to do scans or whatsoever, so you can't eat."
Me: "Ok..."
Nurse: "BUT, just in case you can eat, what wld you like to have? For breakfast we have pancakes with blueberries or Chicken porridge."
Me: " Pancakes..."
Nurse: "Lunch we have Porkchop with spaghetti and Mixed vegetrable rice."
Me: "Spaghetti..."
Nurse: "Dinner we have Poached Salmon with capsicum and cream sauce or Chinese food."
Me: "Salmon.."
Nurse: "Ok.. but all these JUST IN CASE ONLY ya.. Cause now you cannot eat. SO JUST IN CASE ONLY."

For the next few days, I was on drips and ate nth at all.
On the first night, I kept waking up in btwn sleeps to vomit. Had to force myself cause the charcoal tablets were seriously making very uncomfortable.
After vomitting it was back to slping again and for the first time after 2 yrs of slpg only in the morning at 7 - 8am, it was so easy to fall aslp at 12+ to 1 am.

On the second day, the very nice main attending doctor came and examine me.
Gave me an injection and the pain subsided for a while.
And so i fell aslp again till it was time for my MRI scan.

Then again, the pain came pain as I was wheeled to the place for scanning.
Squirmed ard in the wheelchair cause I CANNOT squirm ard on the floor.
And I don't understand why they made me sit there and wait for my turn instead of only pushing me there when it's my turn.
I cld have squirm ard on the bed to make myself feel better.

When it was finally my turn, although still in pain, I think I was already fainting from it.
As soon as I lie down on the stretcher thing, I PASSED OUT.
I cldn't even hear what the person operating the machine was saying.

I cld hear faintly that he told me to hold my breathe as the thing moved pass me.
Or smth like "you can breathe now.."
I kept waking up for only 5 secs before i passed out for another 2 mins.

When I was rolled back to my ward, I vomitted like crazy again.
Mummy came and visit for a while with another friend of hers for a while.
Sis came ltr in the night with Linyan and Peilin and she brought my specs and handphone!

Did I mention I was SPECTACLE-LESS the entire time?
YUP.
So even if i had seen a ghost, I wldn't know. So don't ask.

Got another injection and the pain was finally gone...
Amy and Jeff came to visit and stayed with me for the entire day.
Which was very very sweet and nice of them.

Nice doctor came again and told my I had kidney stones.
But the stone had already been flushed down to my bladder, so now I am ok.
Just need to pee it out.
Was actually ready to be discharged, but mummy to stay another night to enusre i am tollay okay.

Big Aunt came and visit, and mum came again while jeff and amy was still ard.
Jeff was friggin amused by my mother I don't know why.
Stupid amy wanted to push me ard with a wheelchair to Cheers cause she said it was fun.
And luckily we went to Cheers, cause my aunt lost her way and so coincidentally we saw her there!!! (:

Sis came again ltr in the night with Calvin and just sat ard for a while.
Didn't talk much cause I wanted to slp due to the medicine.

Sharon came the next morning and bought me chicken rice!!!
And I can finally eat the hospital food!!!!
Which is the long awaited spaghetti!!

But the food turned out to be tollay different.
For breakfast, I was supposed to have Pancakes with Blueberries,

And this is WHAT I GOT.
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Tell me how cheated can I be?

P/s: Thanks to all those who visited me.
I think you guys are really nice and damn sweet!
Thanks Jemaine for calling, marbird, van, jen, diroa, rene and bei for caring when I msged you guys.
And also those who showed your concern but I forgot your names!

P/p/s: Especially to amy and jeff for that period of time. For fetching me ard and even sending me back home after I got discharged! and for bringing me to Redhill for the nice LOR MEE.
I love you guys.

2007-06-12T03:01:00.000+08:00

blogger is getting on my nerves.
i have to sign in twice because of the beta acct thing.

people, tt explains my lack of updates. oh wells.

anws.
more updates to come soon.

- my kidney stones and AH stay.
- esplanade dinner at the Singapore Yacht Club which kinda sucked.
- badminton with jeff and amy.
- prawning with hairy, amy and jeff.
- clubbing at O bar (no pics for this though.)

soon to come people. SOON.

2007-05-23T12:20:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vPkgNcZSBvQ

PRESENTING TO YOU~~

my very cute cousin michael (father's side) watching a horror show.
HE IS SO DARN FRIGGIN ADORABLE.
his eyelashes are so long, he looked like he had eyeliners drawn on both top and bottom of his eyes.

P/S: i don't have the mood to blog recently. mainly also cause i have nth much gg on in life.
ok maybe except korean lessons and meeting up with the darlings for mahjong sessions.

and cheryl getting drunk. tt will be for another day.
basically i've already forgotten whatever i wanted to blog abt for the last few weeks.

p/p/s: i cannot post videos from youtube onto blogger. someone tell me why. the video refuses to show on my blog. TMD.

2007-04-26T04:29:00.000+08:00

yes i am very bitchy. i am not denying.
i can't help it. stupid people are just out there somehow.

and you know you have the itch to bitch to not one, not two,
but EVERY SINGLE one out there you meet just so to share the retarded-ness of such assholes?

no personal grudges here, (ok, maybe a few, just 'cause i can't stand the way they behave and talk and be all ENGLISH-Y when they are fucking CHEENA.) but these people really have it coming!!!

i am ok if there are a few spelling mistakes, some grammar or tense errors, because i am like that at times too, but if EVERY SINGLE THING THEY TYPED ARE LIKE FUCKING CRAP, WHY DO THEY STILL WANNA USE BIG BOMBASTIC ENGLISH WORDS WHEN THEY CAN'T EVEN SPELL?

it's just like me trying to use DISSIPATE instead of using a simple DISAPPEAR to prove that my english is damn good, but i can't spell DISISSIPATE (pun here, my friends. I so can spell!) for nuts.

i was blog surfing or shld i use "am blog surfing" cause EVERY SINGLE retard i came across is using it FOR EVERY SENTENCE THAT HAS GOTTA DO WITH SMTH THEY DO OF FEEL.

e.g.:
- am feeling so sad now.
- am typing a report now.
- am talking to her on the phone.

so the whole paragraph looks like this:
"am in the office... typing sum reports for boss.
toking to her at the same time. she is sho sad...
am feeling sad for her too. am depressed cox i can't do anything to help her.
am sho useless. haiz.
she can't stop crying.. am so hurt."

AM I ANNOYED OR WHAT TO READ SUCH THINGS ALL THE TIME?!
AM I?!?!?!?

wait. let's read on. no need for names, AM JUST GONNA QUOTE [am being sacarstic here. (pun intended.)] from those various entries.
think we may just have the same sentiments.

AM thinking some of you knows who i am talking abt.
AM so bitchy. (GEE! i can't stop!)

the structure goes like this:
"QUOTE QUOTE QUOTE"
-my comments-

so here it comes!!!
aren't you excited! ho ho ho.

"muz be due to my lacking of water supply in my body... "
gee. are you a water reservoir or smth. WATER SUPPLY.

"adios amingoes"
yeah yeah. adios abenggoes. whatever.

"just dun wanna be some ppl, dare to write but deletes later"
oh my dear god.. DELETES this person please!!

"to brim my cute little pink nike bottle"
can someone tell me wth is BRIM?!
did she mean bring or to fill the bottle to the BRIM?!
i think it's the latter, and it DOESN'T MAKE SENSE.

"i condamn all games that goes round and round"
DEMN you idiot.

"movie maraton i guess"
i intended to let go of the maraTHON thing.. but he did it twice. so it definitely WASN'T a typo error. i cannot take this..

"i've got a destest fer water frm the cooler"
OMG!!!!!! spot the friggin mistake yourself. as if it's not obvious enough!
i'm tollay osbsessed with this stuff. i want to prostest!

"but i kinda melt cos personally she is really nice to me"
oh.. now i know. she was a popsicle. hmmm..

"btw..my feets are realli hurting so much!!!"
how many friggin foot does she have man!? TEN THOUSAND?!

"you never noe how insulting/humiliating u put urself in"
oh yeah i put myself in insulting and humiliating.
you put yourself in shit when learning english.

"ma parent's gg m'sia tt onli means tt i hv even more freedom to get myself all drank~"
wooo. you dirty naughty lil girl. you are so wet wanna get ALL DRANK by someone. sweet.

"Maybe someday we'll meet up again, only heavan's know"
god, maybe you are sad that i am this bitchy, but this is only because i feel insulted for you by this dumbass.

"until the boss of the shop angrie, come and shoo us off. lol. "
Shop Angrie in chinatown.. where dat?
OH! you meant ANGRY. GEE. my bad.

"i realli almost went bronke being left at home fer like..."
i am appalled and speechless.

ok. i think i am abit mean to say such things abt them.
i was once like that when i was in secondary sch too.
awwww... i think i wanna take back my words....

hmmmm.... NAH.
no way in a million years.
yeah yeah. put myself in their shoes.

been there, done that.
can't do it.

i managed to change my atrocious english back then, they can do it too if they even bother to take some time and correct themselves.
meanwhile, i'm just gonna laugh at them.
those people may even track me down somehow and start spamming me.
well...

I DON'T CARE!

i just wanna bitch. i like doing that. it's all very fun.
you should try it too.

correct my english if they can, that is if they qualify and their english standard is like 10x better than mine as i deemed they are.
but i highly doubt so.
they'll prolly take like another 10 more years after they corrected theirs in like eons?

at the least, i dare to laugh at myself when my english sucks, when i am ugly, when i am stupid or dumb, AND i know when i am like that.

BITE ME!

till then,
ADIO AMINGOES.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA.

2007-04-17T04:10:00.000+08:00

late entry so not much stuff.

just lots of photos.

caiying is off to china, and we sorta had a farewell cum celebration for her and vic at Marina Bay and AMK.

met kow and elaine beforehand in TBP to trim my hair and kow to get her ear pierced by GARY the hot piercer who pierced their CONCH.

it was another uglier guy who pierced her ear in the end.
and she was so disgusting she cldn't stop flirting with Gary by talking to him all the time.
asking him if her piercing will go wrong or not, did it get swollen and stuff.
ALMS.

My newly trimmed hair btw. HAHAHAHA.

Ignore the acting cute, thank you very much.

managed to convince them to eat at marina with us and the 4 of us were so hungry and we just devoured whatever food we had infront of us like babarians.

kow and elame took super alot of meat and stupid SCALLOP shitted on my WHITE SHIRT

NABEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

in any case, it cldn't get any worse when the rest of the gang came late and decided not to eat anything, when it was supposed to be a pigging out session for all of us.

kow and lame went back after that and smelly caiying and i followed jemaine's and kelvin's car back to AMK with yumei to meet jen.

AND THEN the gang decided to dine at Macdonalds and we had a mini belated celebration for vic there before we decided to go home.

The cake for Victor.

Tony, Me, Caiying with the cake.

Yumei and I.

Yumei and Caiying.

Me and the getting prettier-by-day Jen.

Jemaine, Tony and Me.

Shihui and Me. Shihui, i think you look fine with specs.
so don't worry la!

Me, Jemaine and our Gu-Zhang!

Caiying and Jemaine.

Jen, Me and Yumei.

Don't ask me why I looked like their mother.
GEE.

The Dysfunct before leaving.

anws~ met rene finally on fri for a drink at DXO with liyun, kaili, kow, elame and rene's friend.

music was good, but we were tollay not dressed to dance.

saw a couple of friends there and interviewed her and some other loser-ish ugly people in the club for kow's CLEO article.

went to SHINE again on sat with hoon, kow and elame to get some korean instant noodles.

YUMMILICIOUS.

went to the same korean place to dine and the food was so nice yet again!!

Hoon and Kow.

My head's like so much more bigger than hers.

OMG.

eLAME and LAMEjing.

ordered the same food, but it was STILL TOO MUCH for 4 people!!!

we even ordered SOL JU this time!!!

just to try how it taste like.

and it tasted really HORRIBLE.

i don't understand how koreans can like such alcohol.

it TASTES LIKE NAIL POLISH REMOVER EXACTLY.

(not that i taste the latter before, but i assume tt's how they will taste like judging from their smell.)

went to PS to catch a late movie and it was 300 again cause hoon haven't watch the show yet!!!!!

i tollay love the show and the hot guys!!!

GERARD BUTLER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TOM WISDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG... hotness.

ok. i forgot what are the names of the other two hot guys. rah.

shall just call them the Jumpy Guy and the Hot Son!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sat ard before kow's bro came to fetch us home.

which is like so friggin sweet!!!!!!!!

and we've decided to call ah hoon in the 300 way.

"Spartans, What's you profession!?"

"AH HOON! AH HOON! AH HOON!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA.

cheap thrill.

elame actually said "what's your OCCUPATION?"

ZOMG.

THIS IS SPARTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg. i can't get enough of the manliness.

anws~ random photos:

ME camwhoring in my mother's shop.

And then my sis joins in...

with a bloody constipated face. -_-

Hoon with lemon slice in her mouth in Carl's Junior.

Me and lala at work.

i managed to pass my other 2 modules and actually got a B for PSOM!!
yay!!

THREE HUNDRED FRIGGIN CHEERS TO PUAR LEONG SING!!!!!
i think he loves me!!!!!
HAHAHAHAAAHAHA!!

>.<

i always manage to pass his subjects with pretty good results despite the fact that i didn't study much and constantly leave blanks in like alot of 8 marks qns!!

but.. i am still left with 2 more modules so...

Rah.

sch resumes on tues and wed starting from 30th april.
all morning lessons. yawns.

I can see myself skipping lessons and slpg till night time again.

ZOMG.

2007-03-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

like i've said. i have alot of things to update.
anws.
my 2 supp paper are finally over.
on my last paper.. stupid crappy nyp tutor had to "catch" me wearing slippers for exams.
and she walked over to me and say:

"you are wearing slippers right?
"ya."
"how come you are wearing slippers?"
"i got blisters" (showing her my foot at the same time)
"but i don't see your plaster."

W H A T T H E F U C K ?!
you want to see a plaster to prove I have blisters and not the blisters itself?!
WHAT CRAP?!?!?!?!?

"you know we can don't mark your paper for that?"

G O A N D D I E .

anws~ not gonna care so much abt that stupid tutors.

070307 MOS!!

PICTURES!!

amy and suyeon

the couple: amy and ian

the girls: teri, me, suyeon and amy~

suyeon, me, ian and amy

with suyeon and teri in mos toilet. heh.

presenting to you, the ultimate GIRL of the night - IANA~

with suyeon and teri.

this candid shot is so pretty!!!! couple candid.

me and teri were like "HUH? WTH?"

while amy and suyeon were like "HAHAHAH!"

leaving MOS

i love my girls!

went MOS like a few weeks ago with suyeon, amy, ian and teri on a ladies night.

herry and gang were there too but didn't really meet up.

was dancing by ourselves when suddenly thess two persons approached us and wanted to take pictures of us dancing.

to think i still posed with teri for a while on the podium

HAHAHAA.

how silly.

anws~ music was pretty ok at the main arena.

was pretty retro at first so we went to Smoove.

the music there is damn friggin hip hop.

in fact it's TOO DAMN HIP HOP.

it was all the ghetto style kinda songs and friggin alot of rapping.

OMG. how to dance.

SUNTANNING PICTURES!!

sis and i on the way to the beach.

she was trying out some effects available on the camera.

we finally reached!!

kow! you and your ugly face spoilt the picture la!!!

sis says i looked like a sphinx here.

a nicer pic of the girls' back view, w/o kow's ugly face.

bunch of us dolling up and leaving sentosa.

applying lotion on kow's sunburnt back.

EVERYONE together before we finally left sentosa

on our way out

ok. that hand under my chin is MINE. REALLY.

weiling, kow, bigong and witty leaving.

went suntanning with sis also a few weeks ago on a sun? saturday?

ok i don't remember at all.

anws the SUN was great and we even managed to meet up with weiling, bigong, kow and witty.

so we tanned tgt and even soaked in the sea water. like how damn fun la!

stupid kow was like avoiding the ball which some guys left in the sea and happened to float to our area.

she was like damn scared of the ball as if it had HIV.

and then we saw a peacock when were abt to leave.

kow FREAKED OUT BIG TIME.

she was screaming and stuff and shouting at the peacock to go away

IT WAS SO SO FUNNY LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after that the gang of us went to cine foodcourt to have dinner before sis drove us (me, her, kow and bigong) to our place.

weiling and i love our bubble teas!

the after tanning girls. kow and elaine are TOLLAY BURNT.

the EEEWs.

leaving cine!!

and now they are best friends who wants to suntan tgt with my sis and not with me cause i don't drive.

NABEI.

P/S: kow got serious case of bird phobia by the way.

Changi Airport!!

went to the airport like super early at 5+ am to send weiling off to taiwan for her attachment.

that lucky ass.

stayed over at bigong's place the night before after work to head down to Changi tgt and to fetch witty along the way.

they were discussing abt gg to Australia to study after they graduate.

which leaves me 1 more year to earn enough blings if i wanna go with them.

anws~ and joyce told us she met this bangla on the night before the day while she was walking home from macs who told her:

"i wanna lick you pussy."

in the fucking bangla accent.

FUCK THAT BANGLA LA!!!!!!!

what the hell la!!!!

he is lucky it's in the night and joyce couldn't recognise his face because he simply blended into the dark!!

if not i would have asked joyce to call the police!!!

FUCK LECHEROUS AND DISGUSTING AND DIRTY AND RUDE AND HORNY BLANGLAS!!!

joyce told him to fuck off btw.

good job.

i think she was pretty brave too.

i mean what if the bangla just turn ard and with a knife to threaten her?

or grab her to one dark corner or smth.

i would hve like tollay ran away asap la.

Stayed over at teri's place

teri was so FRIGGIN HIGH ON RED WINE.

she called amy to go clubbing but it was abit too late.

so we went over to her place to stay over instead.

she is tollay bonkers i tell you.

she will reply "SO FUNNY~~" to everything.

and she started dancing ard on the kitchen floor.

rolling ard on the mattresses.

calling people to talk rubbish.

and saying hello to people whom she have no idea i was talking to.

in the end she fell aslp in another bedroom.

me and amy went to cook instant noodles ourselves (again).

teri's mum entertained us with her son's footage of participating in some competition in taiwan.

his name is SKY btw.

and he got first in that random and i-really-have-no-idea-what-is it show.
anws~ we slpt like really late at only 6+ am.

woke up like really late and we ended eating breakfast dinner and lunch tgt.
i have a footage of her being drunk and all but she doesn't allow me to post it up.
:(

Returning to Esply

i finally returned to esply to work on last sat with elaine, kow, clara, serene, cheryl, witty, joyce, kooiyong, winnie, and of course a few new faces like heikal and junwei, and of course not forgetting beloved isabelle.

junwei is friggin funny i tell you!!!!

he is hilarious!!

i had so much fun talking to him and working tgt at Circle 3.

speaking of CIRCLE THREE.

NIN NABEI.

stupid musa thinks i am a fucking newbie so he put me at C3 with junwei like i needed guidance.

when everyone obviously told i am a bloody experienced staff.

and i was a team leader ok!!!

oh wells.

i am getting used to it anws~

it doesn't really bother me anymore..

cause we are all taking the same pay, but they are doing more shit.

and he even said to me yest:

"i am putting you at C3 alone. to test you."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!

i am fucking amused la!

think only the esply staff knows how it's like to be in the situation.

but i really cldn't care less anymore!!!!

Queenstown 锅贴

supposed to have the SUPER DUPER NICE fried dumplings and tomyam soup with sis at queenstown, but sadly when we got there it was closed.

the shop's behind us. and we are like very sad.

so we settled for fishball noodles before heading towards ikea and ate even more.

this fishball noodle is nice too btw. like superbly nice.

but our cravings were the fried dumplings.

on our way to ikea.

sis like this pic cause she say my hair very "smooth and flowy like that."

salmon and meatballs.

so friggin full la.. my god.

searched for drawers for our room and my sis is such a cam whore la!!! keep wanting to take pictures. HAHAAA.

so we have like pictures for practically everything.

introducing PRINCESS ALIBABA.

2007-03-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

plain laziness.

i have alot of things to update.
but these few days, i find better, meaning more nua, stuff to do other than blogging.

I have:

MOS with teri, ian, amy
Suntanning with sis and girls
Weiling's farewell to taiwan in Changi
Teri's hse stayover
Returning to Esplanade

sorry for the lack of updates but i am seriously FUCKING LAZY to type anything
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG.

P/s: i watched 300.
SO fucking fantastic i watched it twice and amy watched it 5 times.
ibeyond words to describe hot the guys were and how marvelous the show is.

it's so worth the money i spent on its tickets.

P/P/S: gonna get my inner side of the left ear pierced.

2007-03-06T19:54:00.000+08:00

and so we had a simple celebration with sharon.
ok. not exactly a bdae celebration.. more of a simple dinner.

went to sch to submit my mc.
nice nice bigong went with me before the both of us headed down to PS.

was supposed to watch Music & Lyrics (or is it Lyrics & Music?) but we didn't.
smth went wrong with the timing and the schedule printed on the newspapers.
though we believed witty's brain is the main problem of us not watching the movie.

so in the end, we walked to Cine to watch Pursuit of Happiness.
rather inspiring and touching show.
Will Smith's acting's pretty good.
and his son so SO DAMN CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to kidnap him home.

quite a few scenes when i saw Will Smith cried in the show and i felt like crying too.
it was really touching.

there was one scene, where they were homeless, so no choice, he took his son to the subway station, pretended to play with his son abt dinosaurs and cavemen.
then they went into the toilet, pretending it to be a cave, and the spent their night there.

he cried while his son was aslp and someone tried to open the locked door.
the fear, the humiliation and the sadness.
omg. that scene was so sad.

the other scene was how happy he was getting the job after the internship ended.
i almost cried too seeing how his tears started forming in his eyes.

anws~ so after the show, i went off to meet amy and sharon for sharon's bdae dinner.
wanted to draw money to cab down, but i realised i didn't bring my atm card out!
and the whole night i survived with 10 bucks, sharon's and amy's cash.

HAHAHAA.
but not that we spent alot.

pictures taken with the girls before i left for amy and sharon.
with skinny hoon, stupid witty(oxymoron!), ugly joyce, crazy kow and beloved bigong.

skinny hoon took this while we were waiting for joyce.

and so the darlings finally met and we settled for delicious BAN MIAN at banquet.
it was so nice!!! yummilicious please~ we love ban mian to the max.

oh and we saw hairy at jp.
he was out with others and we saw him when we were at mos burger.
he was on his way home but we told him to stay to celebrate sharon's bdae since they are friends as well.

after chilling a while at mos, we went to the playground to play with fire sparkles.
there was really no feeling to it.
just lighted them and stood there swinging our hands, walked ard and see the fire sparkle stop burning.
some things are better left to be done at the beach.

pictures with ron and hairy and amy when we were at jp and the playgrd!

and then sharon wanted to leave early.. which was pretty much a mood spoiler for me and amy cause both of us wanted to stay till like really late with her.

but she really wants to go back, so me, hairy and amy went to mac to chill since hairy was hungry too.

and it was then me and amy started camwhoring.

then a crazy indian man came along and scared the hell outta me and amy.
so we left, and he continued grumbling loudly with things like

"ya scared! leave!"
"tsk! leave! scared right! nabei!"

OMG. CRAZY.

then we went into JEC to use their toilet and amy and i started camwhoring again.
HAHAHAHAHA.

we were pretty fascinated with the mini melt ice-cream machine..
and the ice cream is so nice!!!

and also the kodak machine!!
send the photo to the machine using bluetooth, then print them out.
and we printed 2, one with sharon and the other with hairy.

more talking after that at my block's playground and it was SO DAMN FUNNY talking crap..
abt the morning shows, abt how hairy's friend will be taking photos of herself, and whether we will date those undesirables with a certain amt of money.

then it got creepy cause there seemed to be things ard us, and so we moved to my house and stayed till morning like 6am.
amy insist it must be morning before she leave for her home cause she was so darn scared.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

P/s: photos for the day uploaded.

2007-03-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

exams are kinda over.
it's kinda over because...

i still have 2 more papers to take.
was on mc for 2 days. how tragic.

anws~ pictures for CNY, Outing with the esply bigongs and Old pics with rene for work uploaded at the side.

went for tuiton before meeting kow and bigong for the Shine Mart fight.
need to grab all the MEI sticks of all the different DBSG boys before they were all being snatched.

in the end, i didn't get any, cause the boxes are left with only micky's, yunho's and changmin's.
no junsu's or jaejoong's.
so too bad.

but they have this ONE whole box of all 4 of them with an image booklet and a CD selling at $28.80.

don't think it's very worth it since there isn't any jaejoong.

5-1 = 0 HOR!!

so after buying some instant noodles, we went to Chinatown for our korean meal.
a restaurant called NUL BOM.
rei.. it's the same kind of restaurant you work at.
anws~ the food was pretty nice.

here's what we ordered!

the 6 side dishes.
kimchi was nice, everything was nice, but the one on the top left is the nicest!!!!

the Spicy Nian Gao. (with like fishcakes, veges, and instant noodles as well.)

the Spicy Chicken and Potato Stew.
the soup base and potato was SUPERB!!!
but the overheating made the soup dried up like super fast.

bigong, me and kow enjoying our food. (i looked like paul twohill. ERBX.)

me and kow tollay loved the food!!!

us 3 leaving the shop. (abit outta pt, but i think my hair veyr nice like this leh. heh.)

with the help of bigong's KING OF ALL PHONE phone's flash power.

and then we went to DXO.
just joyce, me, kow, bigong and kaili(minogue).
had some drinks at first, sat ard, talked, get crazy over the hotness of the boys.

then joyce came.
followed by kaili(minogue) and we went to dance!!!

music was exceptionally great last night.
seriously.
it was like the best ever second to the first time we went to DXO together.
full of R&Bs and Hip-Hops.
from justin timberlake's sexy back, to BEP's Bebot, Fergie's Fergalicious, Pussycat Dolls' Buttons, and J.Lo's Control Myself.

the music was so good, we seriously cldn't control ourselves!!!!!!
hahahahahaa.
the dancefloor was spacious enough, despite a lil pushing and shoving.
we had more than enough space to go wild and start doing big moves and laugh at ourselves.

saw like many ugly guys.
tollay cannot dance kinda guys.
UNCLES.
UNCLES WITH MAID.
indians.
china men,
by saying china men, we meant two of them who are gay.
one looked abit like WU ZUN, but skinnier like by a dozen, and uglier like by a million.
and his gay partner who wore nth inside his jacket, and still want to "show off" his bare chest by unzipping the jacket halfway.

kow said that jacket guy tried to be as shexy as changmin, and she went crazy saying it.
we almost vomitted.
they are really. hmm. YUCKY.

and a few ugly guys tried to "grind" or shld i say dance closer to bigong.
and also another guy who wore specs.
they were both facing me and kow at different pt of time.
at first i thought they just had no space.
but no. they tried to get closer.

it's just sad that they don't possess neither jaejoong's, micky's, junsu's, yunho's, changmin's, hyesung's, junjin's, minwoo's, dongwan's, andy's or eric's looks.
so it was such a bloody turn off.

it got to a pt where it was so disgusting, both the looks and the way they dance, me and kow had to back face them and dance to the stage.

there were a bunch of malays too who were pretty high.
pretty high meaning, rather doped.
they were dancing like mad. and especially this malay dude, whom i am not sure if he's gay, he was doing damn big "sexy lady moves".

EEEEEEW.

and my girls told me, one of them nearly grinded me.
OMG. thank god i didn't know abt it back then.

YUCKS.

anws~ pictures!!!!

kow, bigong, joyce and me sitting and chilling before dancing.

using joyce's KING OF ALL PHONE phone, we did a 3 shot photo taking.
candid, acting dawn yeo and me puking.

acting scared, angry, and making a really ugly face.
i cldn't make it cause bigong took a bit long to take the photo.
so i ended laughing.
and joyce ended looking REALLY FUGLY.

sadly, we didn't take photo with kaili(minogue) cause we forgot!
EEEEPS.

anws~ she was really pretty cause she came from her PROM.
i love her dress.

and oh. did i mentioned she broke her heels amidst dancing?
hahaha~ we took turns to guard to broken heel by putting in on the stage.

2007-02-24T17:37:00.000+08:00

CNY CNY CNY!!!
CNY has been busy busy busy!!!
tonnes of visiting. tonnes of food. tonnes of fun.

not to mention, the great reduction in the amt of angpows, but not that i care abt the money anymore!

i feel kinda embarrassed to be still taking red packets from adults when i am already near adulthood.
ARGH~~ let me marry him asap and it will be my turn to give them out! HEH

anws~ CNY this year is kinda special.

steamboat was at OUR place, for the VERY first time in the years i've lived.

rather crowded... kinda hated the kids. but argh. good food, great fun.

the cousins, aunties and irritating lil boys.

and then the next day we went for more visitng at my aunties place.
doll up pretty and i wore my CNY dress from zara.

the heels killed me.

raining cats and dogs on our way to my auntie's hse.

proudly presenting, the driver.

and think-she-looked-great-in-this-pic me!

at our auntie's house!! my sis is a cam whore.

cousin's dog is damn cute!! the furball TIKI!

and i also went to tony's and jemaine's hse!!

played blackjack and i won like super alot.

think it's time for me to apply a job in the casino.

caiying and me in jemaine's hse

me and jemaine the host!

jen the photographer and me!

caiying, me and peggie camwhoring.

and again.

jen, tony and me at the piano~

grp shot with no jen, but with firby (jemaine's dog)!!

steamboat at her place was great! the food was great, the soup base was fabulous, the company was amazing. talk laugh talk laugh. how fun~~ lalalaala.

and we heard the story!! like finally!!!
and that is, JEMAINE'S MARRIED!!!!!!

kelvin proposed. awww. how sweet. she is only like 23 or is it 22? i don't know.

and she is getting married!! they are gonna get a new home, have wedding dinner and stuff. omg. how envious.

when will it be my turn. *inserts sour face*

and after that caiying went along with me to MOS to meet eunice, weiling, elaine, witty and cheryl.

MOS was ok.

mumbo wasn't our kinda music.

the cage was so FRIGGIN small.

it's TINY. meant for RAPUNZEL i tell you.

the guys are horrible looking. and this bloody uncle like guy kept pushing my back with his back?

what? you think sexy back ah?!

so annoying la!!

so in the end we decided to leave and we went to The Clinic.

free entrance plus 5 free drinks.

strong alcohol, but lousy music.

TRANCE AND TECHNO. omg. horrible.

we didn't even use up the 5 free drinks and left.

ate at 7-11, cheryl was so high and tipsy she was sprouting nonsense all the way.

it was hilarious la!!!!

then we started walking to ButterFactory.

in our heels, and our legs full of blisters.

and guess what.

IT WAS CLOSED. bloody hell.

so we walked AGAIN to Zouk.

Phuture was FULLHOUSE.

madness.

so we went into Zouk itself, and the dancefloor was PACKED.

can't even enter the dancefloor at all.

so in the end we all went home.

caiying, me, eunice kow and weiling in MOS.

and a nicer shot of us 4.

caiying, witty and me!

actually we went to serene's place for CNY too.

but she hasn't send us the grp photo yet. so too bad.

after rene's place, lala, lala's bro, me, bigong, and witty went to Chomp Chomp to have dinner.

and then witty, bigong and i went to watch Epic movie.

lame to the max.

took bus home, and the bloody 502 NEVER came!!!!

made me wait for an hr at least!!!

in the end i had to cab home ok!!

i want to complain!!

anws~ back to mugging.

i postponed super alot of tuition cause of this exams stuff.

i think auntie is kinda unhappy abt it. but who cares.

my studies come first.

hello! you daughter's CA1 as impt as my final year exams meh?! SIAO!!

2007-02-15T17:56:00.000+08:00

nth interesting in my life.
presentations are all over

will be doing random postings anws.

so the topics are like everywhere.

cny is coming.
really can't wait!!!

bought a new pair of pumps while shopping with weiling and bigong at bugis.

steamboat with rene and kei was great then.

the crab moved when we put it into the boiling soup.
it was so gross and yucky i cldn't watch the bloody claws move.

but i ate them anws.
didn't take much pic. just one with rene.

was too busy eating and getting my hands dirty.

and this is my cousin's dog which i see everytime i go to my aunt's hse to tutor my other lil' cousins. (it's jasper btw. they had 2 of the same species. so wy bother taking both right.)

and then there are times when i am damn bored at home and i started taking distorting photos of myself at home.

then we stayed over at teri's place last night.

great fun great talks.

we were hving so much fun that i recorded our conversations.

may not necessary be funny to you guys.

but definitely hilarious for us.

internal jokes and actions and blah.

guys know now what girls do stayovers.

practically get stupid and talk crap.

you can hear "rapping" and then teri was like "my breast pain~~~"

http://www.esnips.com/doc/44ef01d9-8f7e-46c8-8813-82e7617fdcfc/amy-rapping-(my-breast-pain)

and this one.. tonnes of stupid accents.. and we just drifted off to sing to nice songs and back to our stupid topics again..

http://www.esnips.com/doc/479113fc-c0ef-41f3-82fb-9bc8bbc1c160/accents-edited

ok. abit mean to laugh at other people.. but. it's true right?

they were all meant to be a joke.

so rah. angry your business ah.

super alot of laughing.. and super alot of random lame stuff.

we practically went crazy in the night.

2007-01-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

worked at mum's place last sat and sun.
sat for training... it was pretty fun.
auntie cindy is quite funneh. telling me quite a few things abt the girls and the disgusting men i will get to meet.
must admit.. there are quite a few gd-looking guys.
but knowing what they actually went to my mum's shop for, it's a BLODDY huge turn off.

met up with witty and dearest bigong for dinner at bugis after that.
the convers. along the road to SHINE supermarket was the stupidest convers ever.

witty: "hey, you all heard the yellow bird in the morning before? very irritating leh. it goes ER WOR."
and then she:
"ER WOR! ER WOR! ER WOR!"

bigong: "NO. yellow birds don't make that sound can."
witty: "YES it does!!! it ER WOR!!!"
bigong: "no! it doesn't sound familiar from the way you make that sound."
witty: "ER WOR ER WOR! ER WOR! it's correct!"

bigong: "it's not lo. but how come people say cow moos. they don't MOOO~~ what."
witty: "ya la. they MOH~~~~"
me: "then pig? they don't snort either."
witty: "ya la. ducks also don't quack what. they are more like QUAH QUAH"
bigong: "eh witty.. the yellow bird don't ER WOR LA!"
witty: "they do!"
witty: " why do english teacher teach us so many wrong stuff in primary school?"
me: "lucky never teach us abt the yellow bird."
witty: " A yellow bird ER WORS."
bigong: "TWO yellow birds ER WOR."
me: " the yellow bird ER WOR-ed."
bigong: " EH! yellow bird don't ER WOR LA!!"

so after awhile.. we finally reached the korean supermarket.
and suddenly bigong told me to turn ard. and i still cldn't see what she saw.
then i saw it.

our boys were there!!!
they are finally in SINGAPORE!!!
the first time bigong and i went we cldn't get anything. cause apparantly they were sold out.
now the shop owner imported more again!!!!

yoochun was in abundance!!!
yunho, junsu and changmin had their fair share.
JAEJOONG is SUPER RARE.
outta 100 boxes, only 2 of them were with his face.

bigong was digging for them until she looked damn worned out.
her hair was SUPER messy.
we were practically screaming and laughing and keeping everyone away from that lane of merchandise.

bigong bought 3 yoochun-s and one each for the others.
i only bought 3 junsu-s.
will be gg back with more cash and boys for me!!!!
(i only realised i forgot to get for bei and kei and rei after i bought them. shit.)

anws~ here are my rewards!!
(bei, rei & kei: eh. see the pics first k. when i go back i buy for you guys.)

my 3 junsu-s:

and the back of it with small pics of the grp.

Monday:
met up with amy, sharon and ian for dinner at jp.
dinner was fine.. simple food, but great conversation.

a pt where ian made a really funny joke abt the shampoo purpose.
it says "long and smooth" or "soft and silky" that sorta lines.
and then you go guess what jokes he will crack.

took some pics.. with my two darlings. a meetup after so damn long.
the 3 of us. ah~ i miss them so much.
if only the three of us study together, work together, live together and stuff.
i love them loads.

sharon darh and me at mos burger.

amy darh and me in the theatre's toilet.

and finally a pic. of the 3 of us in toys 'r' us.

and ian was so silly!!! cause he was like really near us when the 3 of us went to the ladies before the movie, so i asked him casually "are you coming in as well?"
and he said "yeah alright!" and promptly scurried in the same cubicle with amy chua.

HAHAHAHHAHAA!!!
it was hilarious.
lucky there wasn't anyone in when he entered. if not. omg.
here's the culprit.

ian trying to run away from the ladies once the coast was clear.

anws~ speaking of the movie.
we watched the GRIDIRON GANG.
it's fucking nice.
i didn't even know what show was it.
it wasn't widely publicised.
but it was touching as hell.

based on a true story, a some sorta prison warden was very concerned abt the teenage offenders he sees everyday in juvenile prison. (mostly blacks.)
they shoot people on their streets, stole, drug trafficked and stuff.
so he decided to form a football team, and some how make the teenagers believe they can do smth else other than commit those silly crimes.

it has this overwhelming feeling when you see the team finally got their act together and just prove to everyone they are useful too.

it's not just a normal overwhelming show.. that's makes you like.. sitting damn straight up and watching intently.
it makes you smile from deep down. it touches you.
cause you realised, these are real.

The Rock said lines that came out exactly from real guy.
so friggin encouraging. so friggin motivating.
it makes you realised, someone can be so nice, put in so much effort, just so another can learn and be someone good in the society.

and they actually show the faces of the people whom the actors we acting as, talking abt how they used to be.
and also footages of how the real coach talk, inspire the teenagers.
and how the football team cried when they lost a game.
it was all so touching.
it just makes you wanna cry outta happiness that these teenagers, finally treasure something. finally feel agony, feel a sense of belonging after so long of just wanderin ard aimlessly and shooting the hell outta innocent people.

plus. the guy playing at Willie Weathers is HOT. so was The Rock.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
amy and i were making so much noise in the cinemas.

The Rock and the real coach: Sean Porter

Willie Weathers (Jade Yorker) and his girlfriend in the show.
bei, don't you think he look super like eric? i think so can.
and i think he is very hot.
he is 21 this year. WOOHOOO!!!

2007-01-19T11:13:00.000+08:00

this was pretty long ago but back then i didn't have a phone to capture it, but now i have it, i am showing it!
hahaha, will be posting blardee random stuff now. all because i have a new phone!!!!!!!!
WHAHAHAHAAHA!

anws. tube dress from zara. it was pretty cheap. $29.90 only.
bought it while me and sis were shopping in taka.

and this two are my cousins whom i am tutoring.
the boy is super hyper active and the two of them talk tonnes of crap during tuition, laughing at the stupidest thing ever you can hear.
but ah~~ who hasn't been in that stage. i am sure we were all like that in pri. sch too.

one of the crap the girl asked me.
"ah jing, why is your face so round?"

-_______________________-

2007-01-14T14:36:00.000+08:00

i finally got a new phone!!
and i changed my number.
but guess what.. i sent a grp of people a msg with my new no.,
just saying:

"Hey, i've changed my number.."

I AM DAMN STUPID.

minutes ltr, the grp of people flooded me with,
"ok.. but who are you?"

OMG. how did i become an airhead in just one day.

anyhoos! this is my new phone!

Sony Ericsson Z610i.

wanted to get a Samsung.. but no new or nice designs which i favour.
so this will do for the next two years.

OH! and i need to buy the micro MD stick with bigger size.
it's only 64MB now. DAMN SIAN.
anyone know where i can get good and cheap ones?

ok that aside! time for other stuff.
met up with the DYSFUNCT family yest.
just tony, caiying, jemaine, kelvin, shihui and our male lead, VICTOR!

wanted to meet up cause we were kinda curious to find out how victor look after he went into army.
and this is how he look now!!

him and shihui. personally i like him better like this. less hair, more face, more flesh, less skinny, more hygienic.

anws. the gang of us met up at MS for lunch at Sakae Sushi cause jemaine and kelvin haven't eat anything for the entire day yet.
so i took out my new phone and took photos while we were there!!!

diora. me. tony. at sakae

jemaine. kelvin. victor. at sakae

shihui and me in the toilet. doing the "tkae the reflection" thing.
apparently i am not very good at it.
actually i suck.
hahahahaha.

us in another toilet on other level.
it was so friggin cold i had to zip my jacket ALL THE WAY UP.
and yes. i agree i look fugly here.

and more photo taking session. a crazy frenzy.
thus the random pointless pics.
shihui, vic and tony.
TALLEST TO THE SHORTEST.

me and tony outside the toilet.

after all those stupid photos, we've decided to head for Kbox while waiting for yumei (which in the end she didn't turn up. WAH LAO.) .

pictures from kbox:

and of course not forgetting some SELF LOVE photos of myself.
well. that's because i am obsessed with my new phone and i kinda like it.
so..
MUST TAKE SHOTS OF MYSELF AND PRETEND TO BE SOMEONE WHO THINKS SHE IS DAMN PRETTY, BUT CANNOT SAY IT OUT LOUD, SO HAVE TO POST PICTURES OF HERSELF ON BLOG AND ASSUMES THAT EVERYONE WILL THINK SHE IS SUPER CHIO TOO.

WHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA.
bloody random.

anws. after that, met up with my beloved esply gang and my dearest bigong and rene!
lotsa hugs and love from everyone.
hugged witty, my bigong, liyun!, kaili (MINOGUE. courtesy of bigong's lameness) , cute evelyn!
and all time fav. RENE!

kei didn't hug me. i think she was down cause she haven't eat. WAHAHAHA.

went to HK cafe to just snack on and just talked random stuff abt DBSG.
SO JI DONG!! didn't take pics at all cause my hp ultimate LOW BATT.
so, just a pic with kaili.

yup. there you have it. our very own kaili MINOGUE.
i find that name joke pretty funny.
in fact it's hilarious.
WAHAHAHHAAHAHA!
well done my dearest bigong.

anws~ i went for my first facial treatment last fri.
was pretty ok.
got another apptment this coming fri.
need to dig for money for it. TIAN AH.

Dear God, please make money drop from the sky.

random: thanks sharon! love ya for talking to me on the phone just to keep me company.
much appreciated.

2007-01-10T11:55:00.000+08:00

taking up this yr's Standard Chartered 42km marathon run.
starting training after graduation.

i think it's gonna be fun.

anyone wanna do it with me?
sharon. you're in. i don't care.
even if you crawl throughout the run, you're still in.

come on. it's gonna be fun.
and meaningful.

PLEASE.

(:

2007-01-08T04:12:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

hmmm. everything seems true 'cept the education.
TOLLAY WRONG.

2006-12-31T19:00:00.000+08:00

i don't fucking understand why the hell am i constantly crying nowadays.
mainly, yes i feel cheated.

but still?
since when do i start behaving like a crybaby?

it's like i feel so fragile.
or like, i have this hidden talent to just cry on demand.
it's just a sudden outburst of tears.

i cried infront of the bloody tutor for god knows what reasons.
i cried over the stupid pay.

now i have to hold 3 jobs in order to survive.
maybe mainly cause whatever i am earning now is not sufficient for whatever i want.

when did all these start happening?
am i still gonna be like that when i start working.

omg. just let me be an actress.
then, these may be put into good use.

if not, i need a psychiatrist.
i just don't know where did my fighting spirit run to.

i wasn't like that in sec. sch.
nor was i in poly yr 1.

now i am practically giving up on this whole sch thing.
i don't even care what they do to me.

all because of the stupid IPP.
it ruin my entire life.

screw you IPP.
SCREW YOU NYP.

2006-12-29T02:01:00.000+08:00

i think for alot of times, all of us will have this moment where we feel damn undermined.

this isn't one of the times when i am plain PMS-ing or what that allow the hormones to totally make me feel super pissed off for no particular reasons.

and the worse is, this is the time when i feel super irritated and annoyed but there's no where i can lash out on anyone, and i can only keep it inside and just STEAM.

i do feel unappreciated sometimes.
not that i wanna make clear to everyone that "please credit me" for every single little things i do.
but. they shld appreciate it when i do smth good for them right?

like. i cleaned the entire hse. the room, the toilet, the living room.
but just outta everyday life assumptions, she will just come home, and assume that our living room is still as dirty and none of us bothered to clean it.
and when she knows that i've cleaned the room, she will start picking on little minor things that i missed out.
things like "why did you only vaccuum the fan and not use water to wash it?"

and the room.
i am always the one clearing the water mess under my bed.
i am always the one cleaning the WHOLE toilet.
i am always the one vaccuuming the carpets.
i am always the one arranging the stuff in our room.
i am always if not mostly the one who clears the rubbish bin.
and i don't get thanked for.
and what's so bad is that, she take it for granted, and it just seems like she have no intention of helping me at all.
or she shows no interest in just deciding to clean the room for just that one fine day.
maybe she have but she ain't showing any signs of it. AT ALL.

and why do you care so much?
why?
how much my specs cost, and how i shld pay for myself.
how i am doing her work and how much shld i get paid.
and it's ok for you to earn $280+ for minding the desk for her on weekends.
and i can't get a mere $300 for doing calculations for her.
i filed everything again mind you.
i re-arranged the bills too.
i edited all the documents from the start till now.
if your job ain't as relaxing as mine, mine ain't less taxing than yours.
it's two different kind work.
so stop wanting to mind every single penny i earn.

yes.
i am spendthrift.
that's why i need every single money i can take.
i need alot of things which you don't.

i need braces.
which isn't an issue to you cause you do not have my teeth.
you may see it and think "it's really ok. it doesn't look bad."
well isn't to me.
and you are not me.
you don't get how i feel.

i need facial care.
which you don't need either.
and you don't allow her to pay for me.
so i have to earn the money myself.
which i really don't understand.
last time she paid for your face condition.

you keep saying it's unfair how i get the same amt of allowance like you do.
well. you were born 2 years before me.
so technically you got 2 years amt of money way before me.

and that when we all graduate, we shld just work and stop taking allowance.
just cause i hate studying, i am gonna start supporting myself once i get a job after i graduate.
and that will be at the age of 20.
while you, get allowance till ya 22.
another 2 more years more than me.

why am i being so calculative here?
i really didn't wanna.
but i really feel misunderstood.
so many maligns and accusations i took from everyone.

how you keep saying i am crazy when i told you casually abt the fear i have when i bathe with cold water.

will anyone ard me actually know what i went through for the 2-3 years when i was just merely 7?
can anyone actually understand the trauma of what the kid had to endure?
the constant fear. the constant physical pain.
the crying nights everytime i was there?
the elations i had that my heart almost burst with happiness when i finally cld go home?

did i deserve all these?

like i've said.
these are the moments, where even words can't express enough the feelings you have inside.

so small.
so compressed.
so restricted.

all you can do is just STEAM.

rah. i am done.
did i mention that actually i love writing stories anot?
but i always stop half way. cuase i got no more inspirations
they were all like just for the spur of the moment.
the ideas come. and just disappear totally.

i suddenly have the urge to write again.
well maybe i just will.
wait for my stories guys.
cause i feel like publishing them on my blog.
we'll see.

and it's clear that she have totally given up.
i really don't wanna lose you.
but i seriously can't defend you anymore.
cause. i think i am giving up too.

2006-12-23T15:38:00.000+08:00

bei!! nah! here you go! these are the tattoo pictures i found~~
they are some rebellious kids man..

here are yoochun's.
one at the spine end, and one at the right ankle..

then this is jaejoong's, right at the back of the neck.

here's the collage.

2006-12-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

HAIRY!
i returned the dvds.

IT'S FUCKING 24 BUCKS.

545&%^*&0 bhㄹ?ㅓ6568567^ㅛ$% ㅡㅠㅐewq484 F%*5430-5 39vtu9043## bgep!!!

TMD.

BAH.
ROAR.
RAH.

chicken pox.
'nuff said.

for those who are curious, puzzled and whatsoever,
kindly call or sms to ask.

(:

2006-12-09T16:01:00.000+08:00

this is dedicated to the many whom i care and love. (:
i tried to put them in colours which I THINK will be your fav. colour.

To Rene (yours is purple!) :
i've got nth much to update. i'm trying to attend sch everyday, and it's so darn boring.
my body clock have somehow reverse back i think.
i wake up super early, i slp super early. BAH.
my life has been boring.
it's projs or work or nth at all.
other than that, there's nth major i feel like blogging abt.
unless AL starts msging me or smth.
or hyesung suddenly flies to SG and propose to me.
or junsu write a song abt me for their next album and say he's waiting for me too.
if not, NAH.
and please! tell me more abt AL! WAHAHA. judging from your tag, i still don't know to feel happy or sad.
i miss ya alot too my slitch!! please take gd care of yourself. don't over work aiight? everything will be fine i am sure. (=

To Kei (yours is yellow!) :
cause i don't think you have any fav. colours right?
kei! congrats for your ending of attachment! now you get to have more life!! heh heh.
you can slp late! you can wake up late! and although you are planning not to work that much, you have to earn money for japan! i am trying to eanr for KOREA TOO!!
and you still owe me steamboat.
and i need to go imm one day. can you go with me?
i owe them DVDs.

To Rei (yours is blue! i rem. you like blue alot in sec. sch!) :
rah. i can't wait to work in the toy musuem.
but seems abit scary. cause i don't know people there. BAH.
and i haven't get my pants and shoes yet. ROAR.
you better talk to me more and come look for me when i start work k!
plus for the x'mas thing, i will be free except for the days which i'll be working (that is if i get to work next week). cause i am having my 2 weeks term break after next week!
noraebang! and we can go out with murdoc and minoo soon too. that is if we are all free! HAHA.

To Bei (yours is just white, you like white right? i keep associating white with you.) :
when are you free for dec? rei wanna celebrate.
oh.. and you know what!
my friend told me junsu lost another 5kg cause of his new hairstyle.
the hairstylist told him the hair will look nicer if the face is sharper.
so he lose weight for that i think. that skinny freak.
and i also saw from a forum that yoochun is attached. OMG. how jealous.

To Amy (yours is red! no reason! cause i don't think you have a fav. colour either.) :
sorry girl! can't go to the airport with you to fetch ian.
it's kinda weird isn't it.
i'm no where near close to him in the term of friend wise.
as in, i enjoy both yours and his company, but we aren't that familiar with each other aiight.
and i enjoy every single min when i am out with you all, whether it's the movie or just sitting down to chill.
thanks alot girl.
and i can't wait for the camping thing with you guys!! it's gonna be so fun!!
ok. that is if you and princess ian reach an agreement or smth.

To Herry (i think you like black, but you can't see it black, so i chose brown) :
hey! thanks for the trouble of always coming over to JE to meet me ah.
although it's not very far.
ok. actually i don't want to thank you. take it back.
cause you had fun too!
and i still hasn't return your dvds, if that's what you are concerned abt.
i make sure they call and haunt you down, inform the police before i return the dvds.
WHY? cause i hate the WRONG song you are playing everytime i visit your blog!
and pls. be nice to HER.
don't behave like that the lyrics are saying. it's REALLY wrong.
we all know how wrong it is. you know what i mean.
in any case.
my boyfriend and my husband are SUPER HOT!
and so are their friends! my boyfriend's friends are DAMN HOT too!
my husband is the ultimate shexy thing.
SHEXIER THAN YOU!
HOTTER THAN YOU!
BAH!!

To sharon (yours is green!!) :
my darling girl!
yes i am still waiting for the trip which you are gonna organised, and i believe you will!
i got 2 weeks term break starting from 17th yeah.
so now you know my free time, you can plan it with your free time and amy's free time!
hahaa~ i don't know why, but i am especially happy when i am typing this paragraph dedicated to you. guess i really miss you alot girl!! XD
and i will go find out more info abt the camp for you and derrick ya.
can't wait to go to the camp with you all!! it just sound so exciting!!!!!
and shall we go celebrate x'mas together?(i'm taken on 22nd already though.)
oh yeah.. and please relax k! you can handle those sports camp stuff like a breeze, aiight?
it'll be gone even before you know.
and i really hope smth happy and exciting happen btw you and either one of your two you-know-whos.

To Dearest Bigong (yours i assume it's orange!) :
AH!! bigong.. very long never see you already la!!! T.T
miss you like mad can.. rah.. we must make it on next fri to meet up!!!
go for dinner before DXO aiight. hahaha~
we keep saying DXO is damn loser-ish, but we can't seem to stop gg there on fridays.
no choice la huh. it's the only one with free entrance for ladies on fri.
we will and shall never pay for clubbing. so not worth it.
and we still have a steamboat session to be held k.. let's do it during out term break! XD
and how abt our k-box?!?! when are we gg?! i want to go crazy over RISING SUN again!!
must see junsu's dance and yoochun's sexy expressions when he performs.
ARGH~~ HAWTNESS!!

To Vanessa (i'm gonna assume yours is cyan) :
idiot woman!
just the day after i told you to make the pact with me to go to sch everyday, you overslpt and skipped e-services.
does that mean that i can quit sch? HAHAHA.
eh. for the 22nd, just call everyone ah. anyone is fine with me.
if you know what i am saying.
how are we doing the present exchange this year?
everyone buy small lil ones and distribute, or one big one and do the exchanging?
no more swensens at that bloody hotel anymore! hahaha.
i don't want to queue up anymore. RAH~~~
anws~ hey. thanks for trying to make everything better for me in sch k.
after all the proj stuff and everything.. thanks alot.

To Mardhiah (yours is pink i guess.) :
marbird! you play girl!!!!
so many beaus in your life can. roar. jealous la.
please don't steal jerimi (don't know how you spell la.) away hor.
he is DAMN hot la. omg. -drools all over him-
thanks for telling me abt this hot guy ah.. got like 0.5% of motivation to go sch already.
HAHAHA.
no choice ah. nyp got alot of ugly people and two huge monster cockroaches.
let's go find out what course that hottie is taking and where he always hangout.
if he goes clubbing, then i am gg too ah! HAHAHA.
and also. hey.
don't care what others say abt you 2 alright.
as long as you two are happy, why bother abt others.
they are just superficial and jealous of what they can't get.
you know what i mean aiight.

I heard the most disgusting thing that i don't wish and don't wanna hear.
but I heard it.
I hope this is a huge enough hint for you two.

STOP IT.

2006-12-06T12:51:00.000+08:00

2006-12-02T12:42:00.000+08:00

TVXQ---If they were girls (english subbed)

oh gosh. the jaeho love. HAHA. they ARE a couple la huh. TIAN AH~~~ why micky never choose junsu darling. X(

2006-12-02T12:33:00.000+08:00

061118 TVXQ on KBS News - Japan Bigeast Fanmeeting

i love how they make fun of the host! ahahaha! and changmin is getting so witty! i am so happy he seems to be speaking up more. :)

2006-12-02T12:24:00.000+08:00

TVXQ*

yunho is damn sweet and nice to the fan.. rah. but i just don't like him that much. BAH.

2006-12-01T01:25:00.000+08:00

i am sick.
OFFICIALLY SICK.
BAH.

these few days have been busy.
met sharon, amy and hairy last week (or was it this week?) at sharon's hostel.
her bunkmate was out, so we went over to stay.

went over to her derrick that friend's place to play lame games.
king's game and heart attack.
derrick's hand are like mighty big and it hit every single one even though he was only supposed to hit one person's hand.

went to teri's place after that to just take a nap before hairy went home.
went back in the night and we met again for the rest of this week.

watched happy feet with jx, amy, teri and hairy on monday at j8 and the three girls took prints! XD nice prints! love the machine.
it was so fun we took it twice! XD

hahaha~ amy even went to school to revisit her friends from yr 1.
how cute.

met up pretty constantly and i fell sick from tues onwards.

everyday was fun. but i am very lazy to blog. BAH.

blah. everything aside.
here are the photos!

they say i have alot of expressions.
and that i looked slutty in the bottom left pic.
ok. nth to say.

ok. and the the below are the ones we took the second time!

i love the subway photo! amy looked damn real! hahaha~
cute.

ok bye for now.
wonder how long will it be before i start bloggin again.
blogging is tiring.

2006-11-24T09:34:00.000+08:00

i am dying. i am seriously dying.

i am dying from an over dosage of information regarding immigrations.
information abt korea's high schools.
information abt korea's colleges/ universities.

the money involved.
where to get them.
the schools to choose.
the courses to take.
my expenses over there?
are they all worth it?

i have so many questions.
what is an alien registration?
do i get it in the singapore's immigration offices,
or do i do it only when i am in korea?

kei. i found a high school that might possibly take me in.
Taejon Christian International School.

I AM SERIOUSLY TROUBLED.
why are there so many things to take note of?
all the qns i want to ask are all jumbled into some meshed wire and i can't seem to sort them out at all.

i seriously just need someone to help me.
someone so clear of all such things please tell me what to do and where to go.

fill me in with all the details please!
anyone with friends or whatsoever whom you think can help please tell me.
all abt what is needed to be done in singapore, and what to be done when i am off in korea.
PLEASE!!!
i really want to make this work.

i am like a clueless fly.

i feel so helpless i want to cry.
i'm really on the verge of tears.
is this dream just too far to catch?
is this dream worth all these trouble?
i know i will be definitely happy, no, in fact delirious when the dream come true.
but why does it seem so hard?
why are everything so blaque?
why are they so vague?
it feels like when i stretch my hands out to catch it, i get nth but think air of diasappointment and sadness.
why did i get so obsessed with this dream?
will i really do this for him?

what an irony.
i always tell my friends, and myself, marry a guy who has the money.
love comes second. bread is the thing.
they asked me, "bread or love?"
i said bread.
now what am i doing?
planning all this for a dream which so many had laughed.
cracking and stressing myself out for this dream so many had deemed crazy & impossible.
i've done all this for him.
done all this for love.

i can't afford to back out now.
do it or die.

i want to be rich.
i want to be famous.
i want to be a star.
i want to be noticed.

not because i want the fame.
not because i want the popularity.
not because i want fans to go crazy over me.

all because i want him to know who i am.
all because i want him to fall in love with me.
all because i love him.

i'm damn stupid.
i don't know what am i doing all these for.

i am such an idiot.

2006-11-21T00:42:00.000+08:00

went to NTU yest to look for dear sharon.
but the taxi driver was dumb to the max, so we ended up walking ard the campus that was damn near NIE and no where near sharon's hall.

anws. sharon managed to find us and we went back to her hall.
amy wore like a hobbit and we were like the fellowship trekking the mountains in LOTR while walking to sharon's place.

their hall reminds me of a chalet. or OBS residential dorms.
it felt nice yet.. not nice.

saw her SC ball's photo, incessant bitchings and laughters.
super hawt couple kissing photo that made us fantasized.
ugly girls. pretty boys, and blah blah.

then we went for supper and catching ups.
food was ok.
people ard us were DISGUSTING, DUMB and APPALLING.
they just don't know when to retreat after a total run down.

amy: "which part of 'NO' did you not understand?"
boy: " my friend ask me to come wan."
amy: "they ask you to come then you come, they ask you to stand on the road and get banged by a car, will you?"

by right, the boy is just supposed to say sorry and go away. but lo and behold!

boy: "no."

STUPID.

anws. on our way back we saw a dead frog with it's body intact.
so we walked away with frogs as our main convers.

then we saw another frog lying on the streets, dead, with exploded body and
NO HEAD.

FUCK MAN. it was gross.
i can see the blood and intestines, and a bloody hole within the body, but there is NO HEAD!
YUCKS la.

then we were just saying:

"wah. abit alot of frogs today right."

and suddenly...

sharon: "AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!"
me: "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!"

and then i saw the mini jumping frog which sharon saw.
and guess what?

AMY SCREAMED INTO MY EAR.
SHE SCREECHED AND SCREAMED.

the HIGH PITCH scream you hear in movies RIGHT INTO MY RIGHT EAR.

omg. my eardrum almost exploded like the dead frog.

and she screamed when we damn near another hall. YIKES.
i think we are damn disturbing people.

but it's so FUN. OMG.

i love my darlings.

and RON dear!! you will do well for your exams! (:

2006-11-15T02:31:00.000+08:00

sch started 2 days ago.
and eh. i didn't attend for both days.
roar.

yes yumei. i will start attending lessons tmr.
yes vanessa. i will start attending lessons tmr.
yes mardhiah. i will start attending lessons tmr.

omg. isn't it abit conincidental that all the names mentioned are in accordance to the number of letters? and each name is just ONE alphabet longer than the previous name?
HAHAHAHA.

cheap thrill.

work had been generally fine if not for the new ah lian on the block.
i think i have to speak the lian-guage just to communicate with her.

*^^~~! DunNChxXx EeUuu tinkx sHoxzzx ~~??*!* ^^

(proceeds on to using the EFF word, plus the occassional CB, LJ and GNN ever so conveniently into every single sentence i say.)

~~** oMgoshxx dE loRxxXXz!! I'm sHoxx cooOl De lArxZ~!!
wAd? eeU dUnCh lyKe waD i saY?! deN duNcHxx rEad laRzx!
iSh noBodi asK euuU 2 cOmE anD reAd mY bloG dE ritE!!
biTchxXxx dE loRzX!
hUMpphH!!!!! ~~**!!!

(complains to bf)
lAo gonG! goT soMe biTch hoRxx! shE oWnSelf waNt 2 coMe mY bloG anD rEad waN lehxXx!deN shE dUnCHxx lykE mE! sO guO fEn horxx!!
i sHoxXx anGriiEE laRx!!

>.<
(erm. ya. i can SO tell that you are super pissed off.)

(afer complaining being coaxed by so called LAO GONG)
**i lubbxxXXXXx lAogOng! hE iSh de bEsTiExX!!!! **

classic.
sorry. i got carried away by the lian-ish stuff.

*~~~!! hOw aDorAbLe de worxXx!! ~~~!!*

OOOPS.

in any case. i am so gonna start a feminist club with amy chua and form a anti-men campaigne.
MEN ARE HORRIBLE.
seriously.
they show no respect to women at all.
not all men. but almost ALL.

i feel so offended.
and it's those stupid girls like the one i mentioned who think they are so cool by openly discussing women's and their own body with pervertic desperate old men allow men to think that's it's alright to say things abt women.

FUCK OFF.
go fuck your dog or smth.

I HATE MEN.

2006-11-08T03:51:00.000+08:00

conclusion of the day:

i have groups of surface friends who cares crap 'bout me, and i we will never be first in line compared to ~~her~~ their other friends.

or.

i have alot of superficial people around me as friends.

uh huh.

2006-11-01T18:04:00.000+08:00

tutoring ended for this year.
but it was pretty nice.
went down to big aunt's hse to tutor, and guess what.
I saw HIM.

it was pretty scary cause I never knew how exactly i will react when i see HIM.
hearing HIS voice all over again, and looking closely at HIS face after 16 years.

while i was at the gate waiting for my cousins to open the door,

bong: “你爸爸有来。”

I froze on the spot.
once i entered the hse, i just said hi and speeded towards the room for the tution.

and soon, my aunt started coming in and asked me why didn't i address HIM.
and they started telling me abt how HE is here just to see me.
HE came all the way down to take a look at me.
HE still love me alot.
and i shld just greet and address HIM and make HIM happy.

NO. NO WAY.

I am not some 3 year old girl who still wonders why daddy isn't ard anymore.
I've already accepted the fact my family only has 3 persons, and that does not include HIM at all.
I lived my life, good or bad, w/o him for 16 years, and what? suddenly HE appears and i shld just accept him in my life again?

NO!

I can't do that!
the term didn't even escape my mouth for god knows how long, and they expect me to greet HIM?
they expect me to address HIM when HE didn't even play that role?
they want me to just embrace HIM, tell HIM i miss HIM so, when nth in the past 16 years has anything to do with HIM?!

HE never was there, and HE never will.
I will never let HIM enter my life.

NEVER.

___________________________________________

on a brighter note, i saw my other cousins.
my long awaited cousin, "AH BOY."
well. he changed so much, he no longer looks like hyesung.
SAD.

____________________________________________

[ Are we close? Do you feel that we are very close?
I mean, i treat you like a good friend. But you talked abt me behind my back?
To someone whom i thought you didn't really care?
To that someone whom i have unexplicable emotions towards to?
Someone whom i might possibly hate because that someone likes to BRAG alot?
I thought friends weren't supposed to be like that?
I never did say abt you. I never complain abt you.
Even if i did, I swore i already told you abt it right in your face first.
I don't understand. Why can't you just say it in my face?
Why can't you just tell me?
Why do I have to know abt it from another person's mouth?
and of all people, WHY THAT SOMEONE?!?!!?
I thought i wldn't be bothered or bugged by it.
Sorry, I was and still am.

It's so disgusting that, it got to this pt, i doubt whatever you tell me.
you tell me "it's alright", you tell me "it's ok",
and i wld have thought you weren't.

And even when i knew you were unhappy abt it,
I cldn't care less.
It's just like how you cldn't be bothered to tell me what's my problem in my face.
You prefer to tell that SOMEONE.
Then please, go ahead.

Maybe if you just told me to change, I wld have.
Too bad i ain't gonna. Cause I ain't hearing it from your mouth.
You can go on being angry abt it, and then tell that SOMEONE.
I don't care. ]

2006-10-28T05:37:00.000+08:00

Hyesung speaking english

HAHAHAHHA.

"I'm your brother! you know? one year older!"

"Why you hit my knee?!Why 'BANG!'? Why?"

he is so adorable when he keeps annoying junjin with english.
and the way he spoke in english, it's just so retarded.
highly cute-ly retarded.

that's my shexy retardo husband.
and i'm loving it.

he is just SO fucking cute when he speaks english.

2006-10-27T05:09:00.000+08:00

maybe if i just wait long enough, someone exactly like hyesung or junsu may just come by, drop into my monotonous life, start flirting with me and finally confess, "i love you".

correct me if i am wrong, but i am just being extremely optimistic and hopeful here.

the key is, EXTREMELY.

and i think i am.

so i guess i'll just keep waiting till he decides to come by while humming "la da da" all the way.

yup.

i am waiting.

2006-10-25T05:07:00.000+08:00

DBSK/THSK-2006.07.31M Size Eng Subs

HAHAHAH! the way they play games are so cute!!
i love it when changmin did the "OOO~~ HOOO~~".. he looked so adorable!! and jaejoong is so funny!!!

junsu vs micky, micky is so retarded! HAHAH! his face is a classic!!!

and when they fast forward the whole procedure, smth that sounded like "jang gen bok" became "charibok" expecially in junsu's fast forwarded voice. HAHHAAH~

2006-10-25T04:35:00.000+08:00

dbsg (Xiah) - Dancing to Toxic

WAH!! jaejoong and yunho can BEATBOX so fast.
and what's wrong with micky? must he add the "CHWO WAH!" at the end.. he is totally cute!! hahah~ damn funny.. it's like he is mc yu. >.<

2006-10-25T04:28:00.000+08:00

DBSK-061009 TVN Perf. MNET INTRO + O

ok. this dance and intro thing is damn nice too.. GOODNESS.
why do peoply like DBSG exist.. especially junsu.

don't know why, seeing junsu is like seeing a young and highly energized hyesung. i think bei wldn't agree with me, but i just feel that way! hahaha~

obviously junsu can dance much more better than hyesung, we all know that hyesung ain't exactly the good dancer material..
but hyesung sings better.. maybe cause of the experience he accumulated. in any case. JUNSU!! WAH!!
MY TOY BOY!! MARRY ME!

did i mention their hair all looked damn nice?
changmin no longer have the long, curly lion's mane,
micky straightened the hair, yunho pinned up a side that made him look so pretty.
junsu dyed his hair black, and jaejoong's hair was styled specially to a perfection.

omg. pretty toy boys.
buy one for me!

2006-10-25T04:20:00.000+08:00

DBSK-061004 ASIA SONG FESTIVAL PERF.

omg. Holding back the Tears song was so touching..
JUNSU~~~ WAHHHH~~ they sang with so much feelings!!! my god.
falling crazily for junsu boy!!! cannot cannot cannot. omg.
and the second song was hmmm. cute. but i don't why yunho ran away.. he wasn't there. hahaha~ and i love jaejoong's hair. think i'm gonna cut my hair that way. wahaha~

2006-10-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

don't know why.. but nth interesting have been happening in my life.

KTV session-ed with the esply gang eons ago, and i am still waiting for photos and videos from rene.

dxo-ed on last fri and it was so bad. music sucks. reggae and rock, with a tinge of bollywood. and very slow slow slow beats from old R&B songs.
dance floor was crowded with china people. ugly people, fat people and short people.
the guys were fugly and loser-ish. why?

one of them approached elaine, and said "my friend wants to know you. he's abit shy."
but elaine said no, and guess what the guy cont..

"he's very shy, but he wants to know you. he's very rich one."

may i know what was that line for?
What is it for? What Is It For? WHAT IS IT FOR?
What the hell does the guy think of girls when he said that?!

i think i don't have to put down in words how insultive that line is.

screw dumbass guys.
STOP THINKING WITH YOUR HEAD DOWN THERE.

anws, those stuff aside.
took several photos on sat in the locker after work with eve's cam.
waiting for her to send it to us.
had several cute pics!! (:

went threading at clementi with rene today.
SORRY RENE!! to keep you waiting there!!

anws~ threading is painful! omg.
teared slightly 'cause i wasn't expecting the pain.
but rene said their skills are not gd.
so did my sis. BAH.

anyhoos.
went to collect our pay after that and we had korean food for dinner!
SO FRIGGIN NICE!
authentic korean food.
ok. authentic or not, i am not too sure.
nonetheless, good enough for now.

went shopping, met up with joyce, cheryl and witty and wondered ard town before heading home.

i am officially gonna start learning 'O' jung ban hab's and Rising Sun's dance.
i love junsu! and i am gonna have an affair with him w/o telling my husband.
elaine and kei can fight for micky together.
evelyn and rene can fight for yunho.

WAHAHHA~ jaejoong still belongs to me!!!

ok. 25% each for rei, bei, kei and me!!

nobody fights for junsu with me!!!!

i love junsu!!

that toyboy.. omg..

2006-10-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

i finally got my hands on Shinhwa's State of the Art 8th album.
WOOHOO!!!
happy ha.

but the cd is so thin it felt like a fake.
which i hope it's not.

P/S: shit. i am like super addicted to DBSG. Especially Junsu and Jaejoong. i think Hyesung will be very jealous. someone save me!!

2006-10-19T03:24:00.000+08:00

bei and kei!!!

and any DBSG people out there,

DO YOU GUYS HAVE THE 'VACATION' THEATRE DRAMA????

by right the video is already released, but i can't find it any where.
and that makes me REALLY REALLY sad.

i just caught the trailer.. and it looks super nice..
omg. i am addicted to these five beauties.
especially Junsu and Jaejoong!!!!

2006-10-17T06:25:00.000+08:00

DBSK-Banjun Theater-The King's man Part 5-Eng Subbed

2006-10-17T06:24:00.001+08:00

DBSK-Banjun Theater-The King's man Part 4-Eng Subbed

2006-10-17T06:24:00.000+08:00

DBSK-Banjun Theater-The King's man Part 3-Eng Subbed

2006-10-17T06:18:00.000+08:00

DBSK Good Sunday [29.02.2006] sub part 2

2006-10-17T05:58:00.000+08:00

DBSK Good Sunday [29.02.2006] sub part 1

people.. cause i don't know how to make the videos all be done on one single entry, you are just gonna get 5 entries for the 5 parts of this video.
stupid youtube and blogger.

2006-10-17T05:25:00.000+08:00

MBC House Tour of DBSG

i think it's kinda fake.. as in the way they talk, but they are just so cute!
the way they speak abt how nervous, and how micky dance wrongly at the studio are all so.. "pretentious", butthey are so adarable la!!
micky have to act like a sleepy head.. and jaejoong look so cute in the hamtaro pj!! WAHAHAHA!

bei, did i tell you that i think i like xiah and jaejoong the most as well! XD

i am crazily looking for their cute videos. and your videos are still on the midst of uploading!!
SORRY!!

2006-10-16T03:08:00.000+08:00

i think i might wanna stop blogging.
i am getting very lazy to type here. eeeeps.

these few days have been getting on my nerves.
alot and any single little minor things are making me irritated.

STOP ASKING ME TO ORGANISE OUTINGS WHEN NONE OF YOU WANTS TO RESPOND.
KEEP TELLING ME YOU CANNOT MAKE IT WHEN I ARRANGED IT A WEEK BEFORE HAND.

OR WHEN EVERYTHING'S SETTLED, YOU COME AND TELL ME YOU HAVE OTHER PLANS, AND I HAVE TO REARRANGE EVERY THING AND MESSAGE EVERYONE, AND THEN ANOTHER FEW POPS UP TELLING ME THEY CAN'T MAKE IT.

OR YOU JUST CANNOT TURN UP, WHEN ALL THE TIMING AND PLACE HAVE BEEN SETTLED, AND THE OUTING IS CALLED OFF.

AND DESPITE THAT IT'S BOTH OUR FAULTS, YOU STILL WANT ME TO ARRANGE ALL THE CRAP AGAIN AND PUSHES THE BLAME TO ME.

WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ORGANISE SOMETHING AND TELL ME A FEW DAYS BEFOREHAND? WHY CAN'T YOU BE THE ONE ASKING ME OF MY FREE DAYS, THEN PLAN SOMETHING?

WHY CAN'T YOU GUYS JUST PLACE OUR OUTING AS PRIORITY, INSTEAD OF SAYING A "YES", YOU CAN TELL ME "SEE HOW? I SEE IF I HAVE ANYTHING ELSE ON THAT DAY?", WHEN I AM OBVIOUSLY THE ONE WHO BOOKED YOU FOR THAT DAY, AND SINCE YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING ON, SHLDN'T THAT DAY BE GIVEN TO US? INSTEAD OF PLACING US LAST, AND ONLY AGREE TO GO FOR THE OUTING WHEN YOU HAVE NO OTHER PROGRAMS?!

FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU ALL.
I AM AWFULLY ANNOYED AND PISSED OFF BY THIS WHOLE ORGANISING SHIT.

I DON'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE.
YOU GUYS WANNA GO OR NOT, IT'S YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM.
WHETHER THE OUTING CARRIES ON OR NOT, THAT'S NOT MY FUCKING PROBLEM AS WELL, OK?!

I DON'T FUCKING CARE, AND I DON'T GIVE SHIT WHETHER WE EVER MEET UP OR NOT.

DON'T YOU DARE EVER ASK ME TO FUCKING ORGANISE SOMETHING ASAP AGAIN WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN REPLY TO ANY OF MY MESSAGES.
THEN YOU FUCKING TELL ME, YOU FUCKING MISS ALL OF US AND WANT TO FUCKING MEET UP.

DON'T BE SUCH A FUCKER.

IT FUCKING PISSES OFF MY BALLS.

2006-10-09T02:20:00.000+08:00

mama didn't forget my bdae afterall.
i am kinda happy abt it.

it's very weird.
i don't know it's just my family culture or what.
when i read bei's blog, she said she actually walked naked in the hse.
and she and mama bathe together.

me and my mum never does that.
i don't even dare to show her my body.
in fact my none of us are actually that open to show each other.

but i think deep down we care.
do we?
i don't know.

somehow, sometimes i really hate my family.
which i mean it by the way.
i wished to change the state of wealth, i wish to change to a more happy and round family.
i wished to change to a more open and loving one.

but then again.
i cldn't get use to that intimacy.
i cannot stand it if my mother suddenly just lower her volume and show a great deal of care.
or she just keep talking to me, abt how she is concerned abt my face, my health and stuff.
i get very annoyed, but at the same time, i feel a slight bliss.

i know i am irritating.
i just can't get use to verbal concerns or love.
but i don't seem to feel their love deep down.

ok. maybe i am just selfish.
i bet they feel the same way abt me.

the other day, i was asking my mum if she wants me to buy food back for her, so that she can eat it after work.
just in case she cldn't find any place to get food, and i'll just buy it and put it aside.
she said no.

she apologised to me that she was very busy.
and she will have to neglect us.
and goes on and on.

BUT.

she sounded like she was apologising to a customer instead.
yup.

anws. thanks to many people for my bdae.
thanks for all the smses and bdae wishes.

thanks to rene and asri for the bag they got me. much appreciated, although i wldn't really use it. maybe in near future i might.
thanks to kei who bought me chocopie as a temp. present. love it! XD
thanks to my beloved siao siao bigong girls and muffin rangers who bought me the shexy polka dot panties!! WAHAHA.
so smexy.

and my darling amy and teri who celebrated with me on the night itself with a mooncake and a sara lee chcolate pound cake. how cute.
despite having to work the next day, teri still stayed up for us! love her!
and her mama is cute!! love talking to her. she is so darn bubbly!! XD

oh.
did i mention that i bought 2 pairs of shoes.
heh.
one polka dot pumps, and a pair of green heels from tinkerbell.
$19.90 storewide.
and the pumps was only 10.95 at ice lemon tea.
happy can.

now i am so addicted to shopping.
especially when they are cheap!!
WAHAHAHAHAHA!!

anws. work was bad.
as for today.
but i don't wanna talk abt it.
cause it makes me unhappy.
and i don't want to be unhappy.
because i passed my CCM supp paper and also my SUPPLY CHAIN!
HA!

thank you so much god.
thank you so much for answering my prayers.
i love you so much.

2006-10-04T02:26:00.000+08:00

i went shopping with sis today and i bought jeans and nice hairbands!! XD
happy ha! 'cause i only spent like one tenth of my soon-to-be income for this month. hurhur.

anws. upcoming tuition for cousins.
one is pri. 5, the other is pri. 3.
can't help but think my third aunt is trying to suck me dry.
$240 for a 8 sessions a month, twice a week, 3 hrs a day.that's like what? $10 per hr.
by right i cld have charged $300.

but oh well.
somehow we are blood-related.
and i can't force myself to demand such a ~~reasonable~~ huge sum.

i feel very taken advantage of.
sheeesh.
i'm like boiling with steam thinking abt it.

relatives.. relatives.. relatives..
think yanjing think..
relatives.. relatives.. relatives..

hypnotise.. yanjing. hypnotise.

on a totally random note: /
it's getting very stuffy and hazy these few days isn't it?

on another totally random note: /
~~mooncake~~ mid-autumn festival's ard the corner (on this coming fri, that is), meaning my lunar birthday is is due ~~wednesday~~ today.
So why ain't my mother giving me my birthday ang bao yet?
does that mean that she forgot? but she had never forgotten my lunar birthday.
this is sad.
boooo.

on the last totally random note: /
my english official birthday is on the 5th, which is this coming thurs.
wishlist is on the left, second box.
that's a major hint everyone.

((:

2006-10-01T12:55:00.000+08:00

jen still haven't send me the shinhwa video which she promised. yikes.
hate her hate her.
but i manage to get some pics from her.. and some from murdoc.

oh.. how i miss my husband.

anws. Pictures!!

murdoc, kei and mrs. shin waiting in queue for the concert.

my tix for shinhwa concert!!!!!

we were there pretty late.. near like 6+pm. and the queue was already friggin long..
'cause alot of people queued overnight.. and erm. they are all so *coughs*ugly*coughs*.

and there were ALOT of people from china. which irritated me alot 'cause they are very uncivilised, uncultured and rude. they are really like babarians. can't friggin stand them.

anws.. at ard 7.50 we got to move into the stadium.
well, naturally, we were in the standing box, but not right infront.

but it was alright.
except for the occasional selfish people with their ugly banners waiving around in the air like they are the only ones at the concert.

us inside the stadium before the concert starts.

and then slowly, they started to turn off the lights. and the 3 of us were like damn friggin excited.
wahahaha! finally i am meeting my husband, and like finally a decent concert which i don't have to watch from a video.

LUG the unknown to me band performed first before shinhwa officially came out.
they are pretty good i must say.
3 pretty boys, with one looking slightly like kangta, and the other looking like the taiwan WANG REN FU.

and the fans are damn lame.
when they started playing videos of Shinhwa, they screamed at video.
let's say, Throw my Fist MV, so you see eric and dongwan first.
so they screamed for eric and dongwan.

then the next video which features dongwan and junjin,
so they screamed for junjin ONLY.
('cause, dongwan already screamed before mah. spastic retardos.)

and the procedure went on.
it was really dumb, 'cause, why the hell are you screaming at a video?
and ONLY randomly in the sequence of appearance?
they were like machines la!

the concert was a blast i tell you.
the music, the dances, the band itself. omg.
hotness. hard to describe in the words the feelings man.
damn super high.
the music was loud. and damn nice to groove to.

can't really remember the sequence and the songs, but it was really good!!
they tried their best to communicate with us in english and it was pretty good.
hyesung was good and eric was too.

junjin kept saying "I love you!"
and dongwan said, "can i order room service?"

-__________________-

murdoc was crazy over andy!! haahahaha. and she said andy waved at her.
jealous. stupid hyesung didn't even notice me. RAH.

anws. more pictures!
(courtesy of murdoc and jen.)

i was more of enjoying the music than the band itself.
WAHAHAH. and minwoo's solo was really HIGH!
fast rhythms, damn superb dance moves (which jen also fell in love with) and i was grooving like mad la!!!

it felt like a shinhwa club. hurhur.

anws. did i mention that GOODEMG's camera was behind me all the while when i was dancing.
ok. maybe not ALL THE WHILE.
but for a few minutes, i kept getting knocked by their camera.
so i asked kei what is it. she told me "got camera behind you."

happily i ignored and continued dancing, thinking that some stupid freaky china fan is trying to squeeze in with her smelly body and stretching out her hand, hovering her stinking armpits which she failed to shave, above my head attempting to capture every single second of shinhwa.
(i don't hate all china people. i just hate babaric, ugly and crazy ones like most of those i saw at the concert.)

anws. it was only the end of the whole concert that i realised, through talking to kei again, that the camera was GOODEMG's camera.

AD%EWQ$)###!! U&( AHSAE_$32u590 539+7/*/!@!(DDN)($#@@@>>>??!

TMD.

anws. met up with jen, tony and a few more people before we headed back home. the concert was really great.
went to the airport to "sent shinhwa off" somehow.
took several videos of dongwan, andy, minwoo and hyesung.
which i now realised are pretty lame and useless. bah.
what was i thinking.
(but you know i still love my husband right? was just ridiculed by my sudden behaviour of acting like a crazy fan.)

while on the way to the airport, was talking to tong. and she seemed to enlightened me alot.
thanks tong. love you. (:

ok. enough of SHINHWA. let's talk abt something else ok?

anws. it was after work.. like.. 2 weeks ago?
elaine, joyce, cheryl, kaili, eunice and me went DXO.
rene and asri went to harry's to chill, no matter how hard i tried to persuade the stupid rene to go clubbing with us.
but i understand why la. ((:

the music was bad at first. the live band was horrible.
their singing.. omg.
but the free entrance and free flow of drinks made up for the lack of talented singers.

had a couple of drinks before we went to the dance floor.
the music was better, mainly 'cause the live band went off.
hiphop and r&b, and alot of TOKYO DRIFT.
(i wonder if you know, how they live in tokyo, if you say it and you mean it, then you know you have to come, FAST AND FURIOUS~~~~~~ drift drift drift!)

-________________-

it was so strange that only when the grp of us enter the floor, the crowd starts coming in and tried to squeeze us out.
what? outcast ah?
and when we left, the crowd dispersed.
so after a few more drinks, seeing the floor less crowded again, we went in.

and the friggin crowd came in again.
damn annoying.

didn't drink much, just a glass of vodka ribena, and a glass of vodka lime.
the rest of the night i was so thirsty from the dancing, i ordered just coke and plain water for me and joyce.
HAHAHA. i think it's pretty funny for us to order such drinks at a club. but ah. who cares.

so we went back to the dancefloor again, and suddenly they pointed to me to look onto my right.
and there there, we saw this kissing couple, followed by another kissing couple.
quite a handful were looking too, 'cause after kissing with their original guys, the girls exchanged the boys.
and after exchanging the boys, the girls kissed among themselves. WOW.

ok. so naturally outta instincts, the grp of us started gossiping.
was wondering why they do such a thing, and one of the girl must be drunk to be doing such things.

happily, the first girl from the first couple we saw turned ard, wearing a red spag top, and i recognised her.

CHIN KACHEE.
i went speechless.
how the hell is the world so small that i meet her here?
ok. nvm, i just pretended not to her, told my friends abt it and we continued to dance.

guess who followed next?

when there is kachee, there is CLARYCE LUM JIA WEN.
shocked beyond words when i saw her. and she was the girl whom we thought was drunk, thus doing such things.
i was really disappointed and sad when i realised that it was the 2 of them.
it was so embarrassing, and joyce they all kept giving me the "shock" face.

anws.. we were then already pretty close to claryce's grp of dancing freaks, so i tried to use my hand to cover my face, at the same time, tried to move away from them.

TOO LATE.
suddenly i heard them screaming "YANJING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

how timely.
so i turned ard and forced a smile.
and they came and kissed me on my cheeks.
(after they kissed the ugly guys on the lips, yes.)
joyce, eunice, cheryl, kaili and elaine stood infront of me, shocked, tried to be normal, by dancing awkwardly and looking at each other, staring at me with that expression.

kachee still hugged me from behind to dance. OMG.
lucky we left after a while 'cause the music was getting gross. TECHNO.

cheryl peed in her pants while dancing. HAHAHAHAHA.
nah. she didn't, but her pants were all wet, including the money she put in her pocket!!
YUCKS!!!!

oh. and i went suntanning with rene on a sunday!! it was so nice!! managed to get tanned a little.
PICTURES TIME!!!

doing a list of stupid things on the bus back. WAHAHAHA.

and finally a few nice photos of the OE twins. hurhur.
no more twins 'cause i cut-ted my hair!

and after tanning and eating. rene came over to jurong, put our bags, and we went to daiso to shop!! and bought bimbotic umbrellas 'cause it rained suddenly when were shopping.

playing with the props, trying to be "TU TAO".
i know i am ugly in this pic. i swear that's not the normal me.

after shopping, met kei for dinner at JEC, played at the arcade and went back to my place for mahjong!!!
mahjong with "dai-s" is really confusing.
up till now i am still not very sure abt it.
brain cells died.

anws. work was generally fine for the past few days.
yesterday was the last day of Forbidden city and we went to chill at harry's.
asri, rene, me and cheryl.

and just a few days ago too, there was a hosting at theatre, and peiwen, kooiyong, alvin lee and i were at the same bar.
was really annoyed for a min, 'cause there were outsiders and they came to mess up my bar, without telling me what is gg on.
secondly, 4 persons in a bar is TOO much!!!
the movements were damn limited when intermission came la!!!

alvin was unusually disgusting and stupid. i don't know why.
when it comes to bar operations, he is really horrible.
slow and lazy. rah. what a turn off.

i was damn irritated by him, and especially the stupid stuff he did.
super annoyed by every single thing.
omg. he is that irksome.

peiwen was very nice.
so i like her. XD

btw. i finished my two supp. paper already.
i still don't know if i'll pass or not.
how nerve-wrecking.

ok. end of entry.
too long never blog. YIKES.

2006-09-19T21:02:00.000+08:00

i am very lazy to blog.
VERY LAZY.

i am like, anxious, worried, jealous, annoyed, and unhappy at the same time.
shucks.

all the necessary feelings i need to get depression and tempted to be suicidal.

can't wait for the supp. papers to be over.
and then i can't wait to get my results and know that i passed.
but then again.
what if i fail?

What if?

rah. sometimes i just wanna get rid of all sort of senses in our body that allow us to feel.
sometimes i wanna be alone too.
and that i don't have to care shit about others and myself.

i don't wanna feel guilt.

you can just don't reply me and go be happy with others.
while i was waiting to do something with you on your special day.
just waiting for a call from you and i'll go down to be with you.
i called. i sms-ed.
you didn't bother getting back.
whatever alright.

2006-09-11T15:47:00.000+08:00

sat night was hectic hectic hectic!
goodness.
went to work in the afternoon. and it was already pretty rushed.
had to move alot of things and clear bars and stuff to get ready for banquet guys to come in.

all the red and white wines, all the soft drinks. omg.
elaine and me were at TH2 while joyce is alone at TH1.
poor her my god..

anws.. after having dinner, we rushed up to the bars to help out cause the patrons are already coming in.
EDB booked the whole forbidden city show and main foyer for their company's important people.
it just makes you wonder how come they are soo friggin rich.

when we went up, it was already packed with thousands of people.
jovan and ricky were at our bar and pouring drinks.
but they are so.. omg.
the glasses were not ready.
the drinks were not arranged properly.
it was just a state of chaos and mess.

hate jovan. bloody useless executive. so un-organized.

when we went in, he practically leave the bar with ricky and gave us the piece of shit to handle.
pop champagne till my hand cracked.
it was horrible.
the throngs of people just kept coming in.
ordring and wanting champagnes and wines.
they simply cldn't stop drinking.
busy instructing people and the banquet guys.
must say i do thank some of them for helping out.
but seriously, they are really not good at taking instructions.
and totally not automatic.
argh.
was so angry instructing them.

finally during intermission and post show, me and elaine managed to get things in order.
but all of us were just so tired after the whole thing.
thankful to elaine who helped me out alot and simply just listening to what i told her to do.

(:

and banquet keep messing my bar up.
come in break glasses.
and it was THOUSAND of glasses.
one guy dropped a whole tray of empty glasses.
still dare to laugh and make noise as if there were no partons outside.
then the rest keep breaking one of two continuously inside my bar.
OMG.
already so busy still must handle the breakage for them.

saw a few eyecandies.
WAHAHA.
happy.

anws. went for hubby's concert. and it was such a blast.
enjoyed the music super alot.
practically clubbing with the music.
the fans are totally not high.
yikes.

they were so cute when they spoke in english.
eric was good.
and so was hubby.

(:

more details when i upload certain videos, some pictures and videos from jen.
she agreed they were good too k!!
wahaha. i love hubby.

was depressed for a while.
talked to tong and she was nice to understand.
she told me to hang on and not to give up.

i think the thing now is to stop thinking.
when i stop thinking, i feel happier.
when i think of him, i get super depressed.

cause i can't be with him.
cause he doesn't know that someone is loving him deeply.
cause he didn't notice me.
cause he think i am one of the fan.
cause nobody understand what i am feeling.
cause everyone thinks i am obsessed and crazy.

don't think.
just don't think.
like my cats.
not thinking doesn't mean that i forgot.
it just hurts me alot when i think abt it.

i will hang on and in there.
i will make sure i get there.
once in a while, people discourage me and i thought of giving up.
but now i wldn't anymore.

i am being irrational because i am in love.

2006-09-04T14:45:00.000+08:00

and yay. finally the dysfunct family met up on sat night.
but a few of them didn't turn up, but the much needed to be met family members came!! XD

stupid caiying, shihui and jemaine didn't come.
but meichoon and peggie did!! yahoo!!

had dinner at yumei's family stall.
vegetarian meal.. but it was pretty nice.
i love vegetables.

which we went to kbox after our dinner.
wasn't really high, till i forgot what song came up.
and we got kinda high, jumping on the sofa and just screaming.
think we were the only grp that was so high.
'cause when we walked out and saw other rooms, they were just sitting there and singing.
hmmm. abit dull huh.

work was fine for the few days.
kei worked yest!! wahaha!
so happy.
met early to get my tomatoes..
must must must eat and apply tomatoes to heal face.

aloe vera gel is good for skin.
yahooo.
my wound is slowly recovering. (:
gonna isolate myself these 3 days and not go out.
then my skin will heal and i can see my husband.

plasters are not good for wounds.
i need to let them heal and breathe clean air at home.
plenty of water, plenty of tomatoes and plenty of sleep!!!
everybody do that for good skin!!! (:

2006-09-02T05:04:00.000+08:00

as kei have suggested, we (meaning me and her) will go for chemical peels after her attachment.
but i don't know when her attachment is ending.

:\

anws. in case you are wondering what's chemical peel,
it's a treatment for removing scars on your face, which can be up to 2-4 sessions depending on how deep your scar is.

reading that scared the hell outta me.
i suddenly felt that my skin is super bad.

went to search for pictures of different kinda scars to check out the degree and depth of my scars.

currently i found none that is similar to mine.
which i don't know if it's a good or bad thing.

i saw the picture for ICE-PICK scar.

AND IT WAS HORRIBLE TO THE MAX.

it was so gross, and for a while, i thought it was my skin condition and ran to the toilet to check my face again.

somebody lie to me how mild my scars are.
i am like super sad.

'cause, sad to say,
i already got a scar on my right cheek,
and when i got home the other day after dinner with amy,
i got banged by a bicycle.
RIGHT ON THAT SCAR.

omg.

seriously. how suay?

now i got a dent on it.

it's really depressing.
and chemical peel sounds like a procedure for mild scars.
and i am not so sure if my scars are that mild.

suddenly i am getting very pessismistic about this whole thing,
thinking that my scars will never go off, the doctor will tell me chemical peels can't help me, leaving me with ugly skin and i will have no money for other more expensive treatments.

oh gosh.
the evil karma of bitching about ugly people behind their backs and laughing so happily at them.
i bet they are laughing at me now.

X(

AH.
i cannot take this.
i am really starting to get very depressed abt this scar thing.

i'm gonna stop gg out and just stay at home till this stupid scar heals.
other than work, please try not to ask me out.

you can come over to my place, watch cable tv, use my computer, talk to me, play mahjong, watch korean dramas and variety shows....

JUST DON'T ASK ME OUT.

i'm trying to stop using make-up to cover up the scars everytime i have to go out.
it's bad for the skin, cause they can't breathe.
and it hurts damn friggin alot on the scar when i'm cleaning my face.
it hurts like super alot when i apply those make-up.

and when i go out, i cannot consume 2 litres of water because i can't measure how much water i drank w/o that ugly oriental bottle of mine which i refuse to bring out with me.
and w/o drinking so much water, i can't have that great a skin, bringing more depression.

and when i go out, i get high.
and when i get high and energetic, i wldn't want to slp.
and when i wldn't want to slp, i'll be up till friggin late (early) like 7a.m, the next day before i plonk onto my bed.
and when i don't get to slp at the right time for my body to detox, having not enough slp at the same time, i will have bad skin.
and when i have bad skin, i will get even more depressed 'cause my skin didn't use to be like this.
and when i get depressed, i will whine and complain like a spoilt child to the whole world as if they care to listen like what i am doing now.

PLUS THE FACT THAT I AM MEETING MY HUSBAND ON THE 10TH!
WHO IN THE WORLD ON EARTH WILL WANT THEIR HUSBAND TO SEE THE UGLY SIDE OF THEM?!

i CANNOT let hyesung see my bad skin.
i MUST control whatever crap i can within these 10 days to heal that scar.
or else i will be really sad.

so sad i can die.

really.

2006-08-31T00:43:00.000+08:00

met up with tong yest and it was fun.
she was so weird on the train, keep saying i am vain and stuff.
like hello. who has longer hair now.

anws. did some catch up and it was pretty fun talking abt different ppl in our different parts of life.
watched Love Wrecked and it was rather alright.
CHICK FLICK.
i bet kei will love it to bits.
plus it has Amanda Bynes.

AND TONG LAUGHED SUPER LOUDLY IN THE THEATRE.
OMG.
HAHAHAHA.

the show was pretty nice.
kinda coincidental and "inspirational" for me.
it's abt this girl who had a chance to be with her ultimate idol.
hahahaaha. i didn't even know what was the plot till i watched the show.

throughout the whole show i was like, if only that's me and hyesung.
yikes.
empty hopes.

anws. then i told tong abt it.
and she said this prayer for me.
which i have to repeat.
so now i am REBORNED.
yup.

hopefully i can try to be a better person and stop all those crap i've been doing.

thanks alot tong. (:

anws. met up with amy chua just now for steamboat dinner.
she had cravings for CQ, so we went down.
the place was so crowded cause it was raining, so we had to wait for ard 45 mins?

the food was great.
and we thought this waiter was a malay. but I told her shld be chinese.
cause it's a chinese restaurant.

when the waiter came over, amy talked to him.

amy: "are you malay?"
waiter: "no."
me: *whispers* "see, he's a chinese."
amy: "are you a chinese then?"
waiter: "no."
amy: "then what are you?"
waiter: "philipino."
amy: "then you know chinese?"
waiter: "no."
amy: "then how come you work in a chinese restaurant?"
waiter: "I'm on attachment."

I thought it was pretty funny how amy could just suddenly talk to the waiter, wanting to find out if he's a malay.

had our very nice strawberry ice-cream, the fried buns and the chestnut jelly.
YUMMY.
we ate kinda alot of vegetables and not much meat. goodie.
but it's super filling.
bloody bloated after we stood up and left the place.
yikes.

wanted to cab back but alot of people keep snatching by queueing elsewhere right infront of us.
lucky the taxi uncle was nice enough to turn in for us and not them instead.
amy was like laughing and shouting "TOO BAD" damn loudly at them.
HAHAHAHA.

photos taken with amy chua.. but i don't even know if she'll upload them and send to me.
yikes.

2006-08-28T00:59:00.000+08:00

it's been 2 years.
can you believe it?
i've been through it for two years.

all the yearning for them to come back.
all the missing of them running around and snuggling up to me.
all the pain of losing them 2 years ago.
all the torture i had to put through with them being not around.
all the wishing of them being around me again.

Hi Ash.
Hi Patchy.
Are you girls still doing fine up there?
Have you girls forgiven me?
I dreamt of you the other night Ash.
But in my dream, you were a cat which I was just familiar with.
And not the girl which i loved and cared for.
I played with you, tickled you and let you nibble on my finger.
But guess what?
You started biting really hard on my fingers like you hate me.
You bit like you hated me for abandoning you.
I am sorry.

I was really sad and affected by that dream.
Were you angry at the fact that I don't recognise you in my dreams?
Or are you still angry that I didn't save you?

I don't know.
Patchy stopped coming back.
Patchy stopped coming back to my dreams.
Did you forget me already, Patchy?
Did you want to forget me cause you hate me too?

I sat there on the sofa a few days ago.
Thinking of the days you two would run around and jump up and down everywhere.
And i couldn't stop crying.
I really miss you two alot.
The most precious things that happened in my life.

A few days ago, I started to realised we are reaching 2 years.
Work for the past 3 days have put it off my mind.
Everything was fine till tonight.

She gave me crap.
So much crap I want to leave the house.
So much crap I wished you two were still here.

I saw the 2 years reminder.
And I almost cried on the bus.
While walking home, I cried thinking about you.
I cried when I talked to Rei about all the shit I'm going through.
And I began to wonder if you two knew have I've moved house.
And I wondered if you two know where I am staying at now.

I cried when i reached home.
And i did it.
All those pain I went through.
I really couldn't take it.

Four in total.
2 for you, Ash and Patchy.
2 for years you guys left me.
And the pain for all those heartfelt grief you two and I went through.

I love you two alot.
I love you two very much.
I've moved house already, and I hope you two knows it.

But I have not moved on.
______________________________________________________

I wouldn't explain why I did it.
It's just my way of frustrating.
I wouldn't expect your forgiveness, serene.
I just need you to understand that I have to do it.
I know you will be angry.
I know you will be hurt.
And i know you swore you will never talk to me again.

Sorry.
I just have to do it.
I am really going through alot of crap when I did it.
I don't know how else to vent it.
I don't know how else to express my aching heart.
I don't want to fall into depression again.

Not just for the cats.
It was the ultimate exasperated and misunderstood me that I felt so terrible.
How futile my attempts are, and how she can misinterpret what I am saying.

I tried my best to tell her my feelings.
I tried my best to communicate and make her understand me better.
But she just threw all those away and thought of me as something more horrible.

The worst part was, just a few days ago, I felt so grateful for her presence.
I felt so loved I just want to spend more time with her.
I felt that she was so much nicer, and I wanted so much to tell her I love her.
I wanted to just talk to her, listen to her tell me about her life even when I am not in exactly the best of mood.
Just listening to her talk made me feel happy and blissful.
I wanted to re-watch a movie with her, because I wanted to share what I thought was nice with her.
I slpt with her in her room and she asked me why.
I just said, "Nothing, just sleeping."
I didn't tell her that fact, I just want to be around her.

And now all these moments are gone.
Why?

To everyone else out there who loved me and cared.
All i can say is sorry.
Like I said, please just try to understand me.

I have enough of misunderstandings.

2006-08-21T18:49:00.000+08:00

tried to slp for an hr and get some rest cause i woke up super early to study for CCM.
which i think i am gonna fail anws.
omg. what's the pt of studying.

anws.
shall just be very random today. hahaha.
because i can't slp and i wanna blog something.
i am really kinda restless now.. so just ignore any crap that might come up.

finally uploaded the photos for the suntanning trip with serene like centuries ago.
was supposed to tan with her but i didn't in the end.
ANG THEN SHE WENT TO TAN WITH ASRI ON SUNDAY!!!

T.T

she abandoned me.
how to go again next week.
her skin all burnt and come off how?

ya. so some random pics to share.. cause i have a pw for the album.
we wearing bikini k.. cannot anyhow show off ~~our~~ my assets hor.
in any case.
the pw is my recent english name. so ppl who knows can see! (:

this was my hair when i went tanning tt month.
and i cut it.
i didn't even know they are that long till i saw this pic.
bet none of u guys thought so right! i am so sad now.

the Palawan beach we went too.
AH.. i wanna go again.. T_T

ok tanning time. rene looks naked right? i know.. SHEXY SMEXY man. WAHAHAHA.

after some tanning, we decided to bathe.
our beloved SARONGparty GIRL serene.

and i am the towel girl.
i think this picture is very artistic.
I THINK.

and then i saw the peacock couple.
and i took a picture.
and serene laugh at me.
"WAH LAO. NEVER SEE PEACOCK BEFORE IS IT?"

ya. really never see it before. :(

very cute right!!! the sign actually has the girl wearing a sundress!!
not just a simple sundress you know..
a sundress with TWO pink flowers!!
SO CUTE! WAHAHAHAHA.

and then i geh gao, go cut my hair.
OMG. sadded.
not gonna show u the after pics.
cause tt hair was ugly.
(in any case if you wonder, i re-cut my hair again when my beloved auntie came back, and now my hair has better shape and is abit longer now. :D)

kei met us after that and we slacked a'lil bit more at esply taking alot of stupid photos.

at marina foodcourt eating our fav. korean and japanese meals.

nice view from where we were sitting.

the see, speak and hear no evil trio.

suddenly, kei and rene accidentally smashes themselves into a piece of glass that no one knew was there.

then kei not happy i laughed at her, she pushed me and i smashed against the metal fence.
so mean right... T.T

i became scared of the 2 tyrants.. and they rene forced me to do things..
she forced me tobe a two-men praying buddha like her. X(

and kei forced me to do it again! T.T
see.. she so happy.

ok. next up. i forgot when was the steamboat. but it was during my IPP.
how friggin long ago right..

ate at CQ steamboat with my girls after my work and it was GREAT!

grp pics with my darling girls! i love them so much!

and we stayed over at min's place after dinner!
my beloved darlings, sharon dear in green, and min dear in blue.

my dear smexy amy dear with me! ((:
both wearing white! wahaha.

i took this with my lousy phone while we were in min's room.
checking min's stuff out.

and amy simply lies on the mattress, doing nth and just stoning.
HAHAHAHA.

and i also forgot when, amy and i stayed over at sharon darling's place.
it was when school started though. kinda fun.
oh yeah. it was a thurs, just the day before my entre ICA 2, when i stayed up all night and they didn't slp as well.
so sweet. i love them.

outta boredom in the middle of the night, we went out to have supper.

and we bought these fluorescent spectacles and walked on the empty road, singing songs and scaring the hell outta midnight car drivers.
HAHAHAHAHA!

we bought the necklaces too! WAHAHAHA.

and just a few days ago.. which is a wednesday, we stayed at sharon's again.
because we missed each other so much, and we met up impromptu-ly.
bought pratas back to sharon's place and ate.
looked through her orientation pictures and it looks damn fun!!
hahaha. and i think their horrible crime solving ghostly venture at OCH is very scary.
omg. i wld have cried too.
didn't slp at all and just talked to amy all the way till it was time to wake up.
sharon's very nice dad fetch us back home.

and i met amy on fri at JP.
we went to watch An American Haunting.
rendered speechless. the negative way.
the plot was SO bad that we felt like we didn't watch any thing at all after the show.

if you want to spend some money scaring the hell outta yourselves, then you can try.
pretty worth it.
but i think it's better to download and scare yourself at home.

and anws. lastly.
forgot when but a friday, kei joined me and rene after work to slack.
went to Harry's to rot and drink.
kei got knocked out by a DAIQUIRI.
weak. HAHAHA.

kei and jei at Harry's.

den we ordered jack daniels. or was it jim beam?
dunno. dun care.
all taste as horrible.

kei drank abit more and got totally uncomfortable.
TOTAL KNOCKOUT!!

went to the toilet with her to let her puke her guts out ltr.
and eerie stuff happened to serene there. yikes.
kei stayed over and we had fun drinking NICE soup.
WAHAHAHA.

2006-08-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

lazy to blog leh. how?
very lazy.
got so many things, but very lazy to update.

another day hor?

in any case. study break is here!
everything's over!! yay yay yay!

just wait for exams and go nua for 2.5 months!! WOOHOOO.
but i will want a job.
den i can earn super alot and go to taiwan with my friends when we graduate.
someone offer me a job pls?

2006-08-09T19:43:00.000+08:00

incessant staring of the stupid screen for like two whole days.
all because of projects projects projects.

which seems like everybody is doing nth but me and yumei.
everyone threw crap at us to do and focused on "polishing" the report.

then there's AMR.
where i have a share of analysis, and then i HAVE TO DO RECOMMENDATIONS AND CONCLUSIONS as well.

may i noe what are the rest doing after they did the analysis?
can i noe how difficult tabulations can be when all you do is to key in 100 figures?
can i noe how you guys split the work to be fair?

may i noe why me and yumei have to do so much editing and crap?
may i noe if you wanna present the recommendations and conclusions, why am i doing the part for you in the report?
may i noe why your work is splitted in a way that everyone gets involved in a 'lil smth, while some do nth?
can i noe why must you make everyone do a 'lil of smth?
can i noe why can't a few be incharge of analysis, some incharge of tabulations, some ending of the report?

and all in all,

WHY DOES IT SEEMS LIKE DILYS IS FUCKING HELL DOING NOTHING BUT RUSHING EVERYONE TO COMPLETE STUFF, AT THE SAME TIME PUSHING WORK TO OTHERS?

and also:

WHY IS IT THAT ALL OF YOU ARE THROWING CRAP RESEARCH THAT IS NEEDED FOR YOUR PART TO ME, JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT TO DO IT, THEN YOU TAKE MY RESEARCH, PUT IT IN YOUR MAJOR WORK AND CLAIM THE CREDIT, W/O EVEN WANTING TO ACKNOWLEDGE MY EFFORTS?

WHY IS IT THAT YOU MADE IT SEEMED LIKE YOU GUYS DID SOOO MUCH THINGS, WHEN HALF OF THE RESEARCH FOR ALMOST EVERYTHING CAME FROM ME, AND I AM JUST SUPPOSED TO CLEAN YOUR ASSES AFTER YOU SHITTED?

WHY IS IT THAT YOU RECOGNISED OTHERS IN THEIR CONTRIBUTION JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE HANDLING THE BIGGER PICTURE OF THE PROJECTS, WHILE ME WHO IS DOING THE MINOR DETAILS TO SUSTAIN THE BIGGER PICTURE GETS CRAP?
WHY IS IT THAT YOU DON'T RECOGNISED YOU GUYS ALWAYS LEAVE THINGS TO ME AT THE LAST MINUTE, WHILE ALL OF YOU GO TO SLP, I HAVE TO SLOG MY NIGHTS OUT JUST TO EDIT THE CRAP FOR YOU ALL?

it's just like constructing a building. once the building is done, everyone will be in awe like "wow, this building is damn nice" and proceed on to thank the construction company, the designer and blah.
who actually pays attention to those who built it? let's just say the bangladesh workers?
they carry the heavy stuff, they work under the hot sun, and do they get thank for?

i think it's time for everyone to just sit down, reflect and realise the minor things in life.
give credit to people who are doing small little things but impactful enough to affect the world.

argh. i got so pissed with all these project work.
actually i had the mood to like blog abt every single thing that doesn't even bother anyone, and nobody actually cares to read, but i just want to.
but after so much projs and so many unfair treatments, i was to pissed to do anithing else.

it is the last week of sch, and it's definitely not the best week.
it's national day, and i didn't even feel the mood because of all these work.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.
this is like the worse national day ever.
i am not even sitting on my couch like a potato and enjoying the patriotism.

but never mind.
he's coming.
they are coming.
that's all that matters to me right now.

2006-08-02T18:59:00.000+08:00

THEY ARE COMING!
THEY ARE COMING!!
THEY ARE COMING!!
THEY ARE COMING!!!!
THEY ARE COMING!!!!!

how happy is that?!
omg omg.
the thought of seeing them [HIM IN PARTICULAR] makes me very happy.

all the projects.
all the unhappiness i get.
all the shit work i have to find.
all the unfair treatment i get.
all the insignificant feeling i feel.
all the oustider feeling i get.

i no longer care.

just the thought of seeing him makes it all seem so minor.
it all seems so mediocre.
it all seems worthwhile.
it all seems tiny.

now i understand how someone can just give u the motivation to carry on no matter how affected u may be from a situation.
how someone can just give u the strength to move on and hang in there.

thank you for just making me happy.

2006-07-27T16:33:00.000+08:00

lalala.
i'm gonna have my AMR ICA ltr.. and i am not studying.
no mood.

and stupidly no one told me there's no CRM today, and so i am early in sch.
waste my time.
haven study for AMR, and i still dun feel like studying.

SHINHWA's coming.
omg.
my husband is coming to fetch me back to korea.

i am so nervous.

2006-07-20T11:41:00.000+08:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY!!! I AM SO EFF BUSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dun mind being busy doing the things i like or enjoy.
but sch?! EFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!

GS project, CCM project, AMR ICA, ENTRE ICA and project.
ALL BY NEXT WEEK.
WTH!!!!!!!!!!!! where got time?!

PLUS I AM WORKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg. i am so screwed. like almost everyday and it's full day kind?!
fuck and next fri i got napfa. omg.
haven even start ~~training~~ running.

and i got a job interview at Kumon ltr.
i am gonna be an intstructor.
roar. life is so boring.

money makes life boring.
and yet it makes it interesting.
what an irony.

omg. why aren't i borned in a rich family.
omg. why didn't i go to a jc.
omg. why didn't i have better classmates.
omg. why is everyone so stupid that the govt have to encourage studying.

i'm being complacent.

2006-07-16T15:54:00.000+08:00

they say you gain some, you lose some.
I gain attendance, i gain money, i gain kindness in sch.

i lose my slp, i lose my time, i lose my meals, and i lose my girls.

"we had fun. the 5 of us."

"I love my girls."

ok. i get it.

i'm just so friggin tired.
too many things to juggle.
there are so many things lacking.

work for money.
study for exam.
I AM JUST NOT THAT FREE, one ain't working or studying, the others are waiting for sch.

i am sorry i dun have the money to not work and go out with u all.
i am sorry i can't get a higher paying job because they don't have much flexibility.

i'm working at the same time as my exams time.
it's peak period for both sch and work.
work after sch, sch after work.
TEST TEST TEST.
PROJECT PROJECT PROJECT.

do they know HOW tired I am exactly?
do they know how many people i have to answer to for everything i am doing?
do they know how many factors i have to consider when i do anithing?
do they know much money i spend when i am out with them?
do they know how much i want to be with them?
do they know how hard it is to earn back what i spent when i'm out with them?
do they know when i am with them, i spent everything i can?
do they know i spent everything because i think they are worth it?
do they know i don't mind the toughness of earning tt extra bucks just for them?
do they know i don't wanna spoil things just because i am lack of money?
do they know for that, i work just to make every single outing for us at the least, fun?
do they know my job scope?
do they know that i run around places in heels the entire day when i work?
do they know that i hardly sit down till i knock off?
do they know how heavy the stuff are that i have to carry?
do they know how tiring my job can get?
do they know how much slp i am getting everyday?
do they know how fearful and restless i am everytime i get to slp?
do they know how ugly i felt?
do they know how guilty i am?
do they know sad i am?
do they know how much time i actually got to myself?
do they know the thoughts going through my mind before i meet them?
do they know what hurts me?
do they know how sensitive i can get?
do they know what's going around in my family?
do they know what my mum is telling me?
do they know when i say stuff like that, i actually blame myself?
do they know that what kinda concern and care i need?
do they know that i really love them alot?
do they know how proud i am to have them as my friends?
do they know that i enjoy myself best, cause i can be myself when i am with them?
do they know when i am typing this, i am scared of hurting them?
do they know that when i typing this, i fear that they think i am being whiny?
do they know that when i say this, they will say i am the one in fault yet i am complainin?
do they know that i fear that i will leave them the way she did?
do they know how much i fear the day when they leave me?
do they know that i care about what others think of me alot?
do they know that what others say to me actually affect me alot?
do they know that i care alot by what they say and do?
do they know that i was hurt when she said "we'll see la." in that tone of hers.
do they know that it hurts when she don't reply?
do they know that it hurts when she don't seems to care the effort i am putting to make up to her?
do they know how hurt i was when she just hung up like she don't wanna talk anymore?
do they know how hurt i was she don't wanna talk too much cause she don't want to miss out the fun with them?
do they know how sad i was when i wasn't part of it?
do they know how unspecial i feel when i am with them?
do they know that even when i feel unspecial, i am the happiest when i am with them?
do they know that things like "hey, you're here." or "ok la, u better organise smth next time to make up for it k" actually makes me happy?
do they know that instead of saying "we'll see la ok? bye." really tears me apart?
do they know when she says "it's ok, it's over already" makes me want to cry?
do they know that i have alot of things to share, but i don't want to bore them?
do they know that i enjoy listening to their life stories alot?
do they know that i don't dare to share mine, cause i just want to enjoy every single moment with them?
do they know that i dun want anything else abt me to interrupt the happiness when we're together?

do they know?
do they know?

times like this makes me cry. and there's nth i can do abt it.
cause i didn't join them.
and it's my fault.

and i think they'll prolly never know.

leave me alone.
i just need to cry it out.
den maybe i'll be fine.

i dun even want them to feel anithing even if they sees this.
there's alot of emotions now.
as i am writing this, i can't help but think that they'll think i am trying to make them feel guilty.
i am not. i just am not.
i dunno what's this contradicting feeling inside me now that is making me feel very miserable.
it's just so hard to express.

forget it.
take it as i never said anithing.

i just feel like killing myself now.
argh, there i am, writing such pathetic lines.
ARGH.

ok. period.
just leave me alone.

2006-07-13T21:40:00.000+08:00

too lazy to blog. period.
told you sch was taxing.

alot of things to update.
here's the list.
it's for myself.
hahahahaha.

1. staying over at sharon darling's place. (stupid lightstick specs)
2. suntanning with rene plus photos.
3. CRM roleplay (actually i dun really wanna tok abt it cause i felt i performed horribly. but there's dunno what feeling that makes me just want to share.)
4. zidane (headbutt n golden ball)
5. outing with jen, cy, jemaine, jess and kelvin at j8. (photos!)
6. class's getting better, girls are actually not bad. more bitching pls. WAHAHAHA.
7. DBSK cd won from arirang tv. (i remembered i asked for shinhwa's 8th , State of the Art album.)
8. More gawking and ogling at Cristiano Ronaldo with amy chua.
9. Hopefully a nice chill out session with min, and gang for her bdae.
10. Work and eyecandy!! WOOT.

do that only when i have time.
work, school, outing, slp, you noe. the essentials and necessities of life.
no time. i feel like my time's running up ever so fast.
maybe it's just me. internal so totally screwed up.
i can no longer differentiate day and night. HONEST.

2006-07-06T07:52:00.000+08:00

AHAHAAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!! i think kenny sia is SUPER FUNNEH!!!
with his bunch of friends, whom i assume is mr. bown and blah.
i really dunno much abt them.

they went to remake a video outta this fight incident.
main thing you hear is "you mei you jiang"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LlwEHEnQGEw&eurl=

and look at the kenny sia's wan!!
CORNY!!!!!!!
omg. how ingenius.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iINVzQPEDeg&eurl=

2006-07-03T11:32:00.000+08:00

like super duper long nvr update my blog.
why? cause.. i am back in sch.
yes ppl. i am finally back in sch.

then again. sch is so tiring.
i didn't know attending lessons, doing project can be so taxing.
it's not fulfilling. it's merely making up for idling time.
bah.

i need smth more interesting.
smth tt can make me go "mmm. i wanna do it again."
or "wheee! i feel so accomplished doing it."
you know?
tt kind where u can have a sense of achievement.
you know?
nvm. i'm crapping.

did quite a few things last week.
which was really draining.
nvr slp for 3 friggin days. omg.
i didn't even have the energy to talk.

suntanned, cut hair, stayover and projects.
tonnes tonnes.
i love my girls for being there.
helping even when they have nth to do with my project.
staying up the whole night not slpg all because of me.

i love you sharon.
i love you amy.
((:

alot of things to update. photos to be loaded.
bah. i am like so busy catching with school work.
i feel like quitting sch.

ok. i am like super tired. i'll see when i can update again.
PUI.
anyone pls suggest where i can go if i quit sch now.
NO. i dun wan to hear abt "dun quit la."
just tel me what are the options i can take if i quit.
den i'll weigh my options.
ya. so dun nag.
just tell me.

2006-06-24T05:50:00.000+08:00

just finished the Korea Vs Switzerland Match.
just finished crying as well.

0 - 2 .
like what the hell.

the referee was utterly unjust and biased.
handball by the Swiss player, he didn't even blow his whistle.
and he blew it once he saw Chunie "arm-ed" the ball.

and this suspicious offside thing. they claimed that koreans were the last to touch it, so technically it wasn't offside.
i re-watched the replay, and honestly, i think i saw a gap btw the korean player's leg and the ball.
i dun think he touched it.
and i doubt the referee actually was tt close to see it.
and so he claimed it was no offside. and counted the ball in.

his assistant referee raised the friggin flag. everyone stopped.
except for the FRIGGIN FREI.
since it's a mistake by the referees, how can they count the ball as a goal?!
it's YOUR FRIGGIN MISTAKE!
if the Swiss are tt capable, THEY CAN SCORE AGAIN ISN'T IT?!

i cannot go on complaining abt how biased and not fair the match is.
the more i think about it, the hotter my blood boils.

you shld have seen the korean players' faces. they were damn disappointed.
they simply can't play on. their hearts shrunk.
yet they didn't give up and played till the end.

Chunie went down on his knees to cry after the match was over.
i was so heartbroken.
den i saw the faces of the fans.
and den we cried together.

It's ok korea! we still have 4 years to go!
Let's fight fiercely again in the next WorldCup!
By then i can fly to where u are and support you all!

It was a unfair and unjust match.
YOU fought well and there's no reason you shld be ashamed tt you lost!
YOU have glory and pride because you fought on despite the odds against YOU!
I am very proud of YOU!
No matter where YOU stand in the ranking, be in top 16, or whatsoever, I am very proud of YOU.
For YOU fought tough, YOU fought strong and YOU fought with all your might.

(i was abt to diss the other country, but i realised it wasn't their fault, mainly cause it was the referee's error. whatever the case is, just go back and make your chocolates. don't play soccer pls. i love ur chocolates, and i am not planning on giving up because of this match. afterall. it's just a ball.)

2006-06-22T02:40:00.000+08:00

life has been boring.
my life tt is.

there's nth much to blog abt.
it's just so empty.
so empty i feel like it can end anytime, and i wldn't mind.
RAH. i need some adventure.
like SERIOUSLY.

anws~ met up with sharon and amy after work yest for ENGLAND SWEDEN match.
damn exciting.
super duper.
sharon hates CROUCH.
i keep thinking his name was "CROTCH".
hahahaha.
and we all felt tt ASRI looks like CROUCH.
hahahahahaahahaha.
"KYO SAI."

score was 2:2. sweden wldn'e have scored. they all were lucky balls.
the second goal was atrocious.
NONE of the players, including the swedish, touched the ball, and it bounced itself in.
the ball was like having life on its own.
escaped from every single player's touch and bounce itself into the net.
ERBX.

STEVEN GERRARD is one huge hot ass miracle player.
only after mins he joined the second half of the match, he blocked a goal from sweden by standing right on the goal line.
when the ball came, he kicked it away like he predicted it.
omg. he is so FUCKING hot.
and den he scored a second goal for england!! XD

the match was so friggin exciting at the end.
gerrard scored at the last 5 min. OMG.
he ran behind all the swedish players and none of them saw him.
so one of the england passed the ball to him and he headed it in.
tt's what i call smart playing.
making himself open and available.

omg.
HE IS SO GOOD i want to se him naked.
HAHAHAHA.

HE IS SO HOT.

imgaine him naked.
OMG. -nosebleeds-

He's captain of Liverpool.
I might start to love Liverpool.
HAHAHA.

Does anyone know if he is married?